Christmas Day

Merry Christmas every one.

13 Days Till Xmas.

Well it’s another hump day in Houston and it’s raining. Not cold here yet as we’re in the 70’s yet again, but it’s coming. Then again chatting with my friends up north and they are having Ice and Snow storms. I guess there is a trade off as Houston can be hot and humid during the summer months. That’s when I wish I were somewhere else. Still I love the city and being the 4th largest city in the U.S. it has its ups and downs. I do thank the people of Houston for voting in some very good mayors who have kept this city in good shape. The housing market is doing every well when other cities are hitting crashing. Some say it’s the president and I was a believer as well but now I may have to change my tune to that but that’s another story in itself. I hate to see anyone loose there home but these things do happen. Let’s hope 2008 will be the turn around for us all.

Work week has been wonderful this week. Only two intakes so far compared to the 20 I received last week and the week before that. Good news is I’ll be releasing 20 next week. That will give us a little breathing room but I know our head quarters as soon as they find out we have some empty beds, well you get that point. Next week is going to be wild on top of the Xmas dinner and Graduation program next Thursday and Friday. It’s going to be fast pace for sure.

I got the invitations for the Ball in January next month. I’m really looking forward to that and spending sometime with Pete. Is it possible for one to fall in love though IMs and phone calls? I’ve heard of things like this happening and I can say I have come to care very deeply for this man but say I love him would be premature at this time. I’m optimistic of the up coming weekend Mardi Gras Ball; it’s surely to be a fun event as I’ve mentioned in the past the folks over in Louisiana know how to throw a party. Plus this will be Pete’s first time to the City yet along Lafayette so this will be and experience for him as well. He’ll get to see some of the country side as we’ll drive the three hour drive over. It should go by fast as we’ll have a lot to chat about. My friend Will say’s he’ll make it but I can’t hold him to that as his track record with me on showing up for things hasn’t been to well and I’m not going to set myself up yet again for a let down. I like him and all and would have liked to get something going with him but you get the picture. That’s why I asked Pete to be my date. Plus it will give us a change to learn more about one another on a level playing field. I just really want to get to know him better, rather things go to love interest or not as he will make a great traveling companion. Did I mention he and I are going on a Cruise for his B-Day in April? That will be fun for sure.

I’ve been invited to a Xmas party Xmas Eve. Good group of guys that have accepted me into their group. Will be a lovely time I’m sure. I’m off Xmas and new years this year so I will have two four day weekends for the holidays. I was planning ahead as to what my schedule is going to be like and since it’s leap year Xmas and New years are moved a day. However since have to work them next year it doesn’t matter. However the year after next will be a long weekend again as well. I did get a letter from my ex today and he’s adjusting well. He’s worried about his mother as she’s back in the hospital again; I hope she makes a speedy recovery. I’ll sit down and write him over the weekend as it helps them to receive letters from the Free World as they call it. It doesn’t make them feel abandoned. I’ve slowly but surely started breaking from my shell as the shock and disappointment have started wearing off. As you can tell I’m slowly moving forward since I’m talking about Pete so much these days. Well that’s about it for now so until fingers meet keys. I hope all are doing well and looking forward to hearing from you all soon. Hugs.

One Year Later

Well it looks like it’s been a while since I’ve written on here. So much has been going on that I haven’t had time to really sit down and gather my thoughts. To bring you all up to date, today marks a year that my ex has been locked up and I did have a moment but I quickly got over it. He’s serving his time and I wish him the best. My father is back in the hospital again with another bout of pneumonia. He was in ICU for a few days but out now and doing much better. It’s been an exhausting week that’s for sure. Work hasn’t slowed down either. I’ve been averaging 20 kids a week. It’s all good as long as they continue to come in I have a job so I’m not complaining about that at all. Especially during these times when so many folks are getting laid off. I guess working in the law enforcement business its one thing I won’t have to worry about unless I screw up and after 21 years I don’t think I’m going to start that now. I had to work Thanksgiving Day but had the other three off. So it made for a nice weekend off. I have Xmas and New Years off this year so that will be nice. Did I venture to the malls? I think not. I finished my Xmas shopping before October 31 as I do every year, starting in August as I hate the malls and crowds. Phobia I developed after years of being dragged to the malls from noon to closing. It’s a shame when they have to close the stores to get your mother out of it. Third issue of the publication did very well. My best seller to date. I’ve been working on issue four and it’s really hard to stay focused these days on it with father being in the hospital and all. Still I have to keep going and get back on my game. Well that’s about it for now so until fingers meet keys all have a good one and looking forward to hearing from you soon.

I GOT LAID!

Hello My Friends.
I hope all are doing well. It’s been sometime since I’ve written here and at one point thought I would give it up since I haven’t had the time to really blog things down. I started the blog as a way of me coping with some of my day to day issues as well as my closest friends keeping contact with me as well. It has been helpful especially when it came to my father as folks seem to really be interested in how he was doing. You all will be happy to know he’s still here and doing well. He’s in a rehab slash home but improving pretty much everyday. I’m just happy to have him here another year. Thanksgiving will be interesting for sure. I have to work that day but it’s all good. Good news, I’ll be off Xmas holidays and New Years as well. Not that I’ll be sharing it with anyone special. Well I take that back as there is a certain someone in Boston who’s taking a liking to me. However I’m still dealing with my ex and his absences. I’ve gotten over the fact that he’s gone to the big house and have moved on.

As of today, I GOT LAID! After a year and so many months I felt like a virgin but once I got going it was like riding a bicycle as I remembered every thing I even learned. I know he enjoyed it and I did to a point but it just wasn’t my ex. I didn’t feel the bells and whistles as I did from my ex. Then again I have been an angry man these past couple of month and it’s shown in my job performance as well as close friendships. Good thing is I can recognize this and start making some changes in my life to be a better person and move on in life. My ex will always be a part of my life and I’m well away that he’s going to be locked up for a long time. Still there are some thinking I’m going to wait around for him. I don’t hold the future and surely don’t clam to see into the future, but this I know I still have a lot of living to do and I’m going to try and do it to the fullest. After all life is what we make of it.

I’ve decided not to talk too much about my ex on here anymore as I have been getting some negative feed back from some of my co workers and close friends, the ones who know about him. However I have been getting good support from some who commend me for keeping the friendship. They understand that he made a mistake and is being punished for it. However at 55 or 65 depending on how long they keep him it’s going to be hard for him to get his life back in order and will need a good true friend on the outside who can understand what he’s going through, especially since I’ve worked that for 15 years. In other words we’ll be friends until one of us stops breathing.

I got the third issues out after a long battle with the printers. I was also relieved to her from an on line friend that I wasn’t the only one having an issues with printers. In my situation I hope they have solved there problem so that my forth issue won’t have a long delay either. By the way the Third issue, (A picture of the cover to the right) has been my best seller to date. Close to three hundred sold. As word gets out it’s getting bigger and bigger.

No big plans this weekend but Head some close friends will be coming into town this weekend so will be looking forward to seeing them if I can tear myself away to get over there. Next weekend I’ll be going to Louisiana for the announcement party of the Royal Order Unicorn, A gay and Lesbian in Lafayette, Louisiana. A great group of folks and they know how to throw a party that’s for sure. Young and old as well as straight and gay all attend and it’s nuttin but a party. And yes I spelled nothing wrong intentionally. Well that’s about it for now as I’m still debating should I stop blogging and just keep a private diary as I did before. It’s something to think about and I’ll dream over it tonight when I go to bed yet alone. I can say I’m exhausted from my sexual encounter today. At least no one was disappointed. So until fingers meet keys take care everyone and have a great weekend ahead.

It's Been A Long Time.

Hey All

Man it’s been sometime since I’ve written anything here. A lot has been going on but I have things under control and back on track now. Weather has been great here the past couple of days as Fall is finally peeking it’s head out. Fine with me as it’s been hot and humid here then again what’s new in Houston, Texas? Looking forward to a lovely week as my boss will be out of town so things should run smoothly. Evaluation time so some folks are stressing it but me having worked for the prison system for 15 years not to much phases me anymore. I just take it in stride and move on. Still tell me when someone is to evaluation you why do you have to fill out a questionnaire. Well that latest on my ex is he’s waiting to get to the prison system and last I heard he seems to have excepted it and ready to move on with his life as it will be. I too have come to the realization that I need to move on as well. Finally got the last issue out from a long delay of the printers but happy to get that going and all of my subscribers will receive a seventh issue due to the delay. You can see the cover of the Third issue to the right. Well that’s about it for this Monday morning. So until fingers meet keys all have a good one and I’ll try to do better on keeping up with the blog but it looks like I maybe giving it up here soon. Just to much going on and it’s been getting hard to find time to jot down my thoughts. All take care and have a good one. Hugs.

Just Making Do

Hey all

Nothing really to chat about as I have been pretty busy these past few weeks as you can tell since my last entries one here. Cool weather is finally coming around and not to soon but it’s still hot. Winter is around the corner for us and I can hardly wait. I didn’t do much this weekend as I was just taking a break from things. Didn’t even see my father as I feel bad about that but he understands as I needed some me time is all. I did get a call from Richard which was a nice surprise and had a nice chat. Finally heard from Pete this morning as well and he’s doing well also. His son has finally married and they are honeymooning I guess. I often wondered how me and my ex would fair if we had made it that far. Since the news I have been thinking about him a lot and what he’s got to endure over the years. He seems to be ok with it all and seems to have found religion to help get him though this all. Although there is no future for me and him I won’t abandon him as a friend as me and his mother plus one other friend are all hue has. It’s time to think about moving forward as I won’t place my life on hold till he gets out. It worries me but I can’t allow that to cloud my judgment in my efforts to move forward. I have accepted what’s happen as well and ready to make a move forward in my life. Well that’s about it for now so until fingers do meet keys all have a good week and take care. Hugs.

Day After 911

Well it’s been just about a month since I’ve written here and really not much to tell. Well yeah there is. Found out on Saturday that my ex got 40 years for his crime and as much as I didn’t think it would affect me it has. Not only am I feeling sorry for him but worried about his well being as well. The crime is nothing to take lightly but 40 years is a bit harsh too. I’ve seen murders get less time. Still I will support him as a friend, Haven worked in the prison system for 15 years I know he’s going to need letter writing friend to help him sty well rounded until he’s up for parole. In the mean time its hump day and I’m ready to get it over. I’m debating going to work today as we have a tropical depression brewing in the gulf. This one popped up all of the sudden but the weather folks say it won’t develop or have time to develop into a hurricane so we’re safe there but they’re worried about the flooding situation. Since I work near the gulf I just hope it will hold off until I’m off work and make my way home. We really don’t need anymore rain our way. I lost count on how many days of rain and scattered showers we’ve had but I know its well over 70. The six year anniversary of 911 was yesterday as well my completing seven year on my present job. I wasn’t in a good mood at all as when I got to work my boss started up then there was a manager meeting that things just went down hill from there. I feel much better today after a long night sleep so it’s work as usual and making the best out of life. So until fingers meet keys.

Recapping The Weekend

I hope all are well. I had a wonderful weekend however yesterday we reached the three digits of one hundred and two. A record for us here as we normally don’t reach the three digits. Then again certain parts of the U.S. are going through a heat wave. I guess after 63 days of rain it was bound to come. All I can say is Mother Nature has lost her ever loving mind. Recapping my weekend, Friday work as usual nothing exciting there. It was fairly easy so I wasn’t complaining. Than again it wouldn’t do any good anyway. Found out our second build will finally be opening around the twenty fifth of this month. Still haven’t decided if I’m going over there however my work wife is and she wanted me over there bad. I would like to go to a morning shift and enjoy evenings off again but we’ll see what happens there. Working in a prison for 15 years I’m not to king on small and tight places especially when you have a bunch of teenage boys running around. Gang activity has really been getting out of control but we’re holding fast and breaking them down. Something about being a teenager they just don’t think straight.

Saturday morning took the truck back to the mechanic to see if he could find the leak and the damn thing never leaked while it was there. Got it home and there it went. So I’ve been parking it on the streets So it won't spot the driveway more than it already has until I can get it back over to the mechanic and leave it so they can find the leak and fix it. In the meantime I’m been keeping up with the fluids to make sure so nothing breaks down on me. I’ll be able to buy a little run about here in a month, so I’m going to nurse this one until that time as it’s time to retire the old girl.

Got home and took me a nap as I was exhausted from the ordeal. Got up about three and called Bob John as he wanted to go eat dinner, Sort of like a belated Birthday dinner. It was nice of him then again he wanted some company too so it worked out. We ended up at the Texas Road House. My first time in one but Logan’s Road House is similar as well so it wasn’t that much of a difference. Man was the eye candy in there. You talk about opening your eyes, it was nice. We got there just in time to beat the crowds. We decided on a movie afterward and ended up seeing The Borne Ultimatum. I have to say it was good and plenty of action. I won’t give away the ending but lets say they left it open for a forth.

Sunday help move my nephew back to college. Senior this year and I’m ready to see his little narrow ass get out and working a regular job. He’s a little strange but he doesn’t do drugs or drink so I can be thankful to that. Nice place he’s living in as well. Of course every student on the grounds was moving in that day so it was U haul city in the complex. I was hot, dirty and tired when it was all over. Made it home took a good shower and laid my back ass down of course after I got something to ear and watched BIG LOVE.

So It’s Monday and so far it’s going good. Got up early and working on a few things that needed my attention. It’s suppose to get another three digit day today so I’ll make sure I stay in doors. Well not much else to tell. I do hope all had a great weekend and an even wonderful week ahead. So until fingers meet keys do take care my friend and chat soon. Hugs to you all.

The Start Of A New Week

Monday, and I’m feeling much better than I was over the weekend. I tell ya, running a fever of 103 isn’t a good feeling at all as all kinds of things ran though my head. Not to mention the hot sweats and chills I was having. Even had to turn down the air a bit. I didn't go out much, only to get the paper and maybe some soups and things to help me on the road to recover. Over all I’m on my way to recover and the wound is draining pretty good now. Got the truck back over the weekend and it has to go back. When they dropped the transmission to fix one leak they caused another leak somewhere. Needless to say I’m not to happy about driving it back over there but we do what we have to do. Of course I didn’t see my father as the fever had me drained. I guess I needed the rest. When the fever finally started breaking I felt refreshed. Over all nothing else really to talk about. I hope all had a great weekend and looking forward to an even wonderful week ahead. Until fingers meet keys. Hugs to you all.

Still Down For The Count

Well I’ve been suffering with this Spider bite or Staff infection for four days now. I’m in cline to think it’s a staff infection. Last night was running a fever of 103 and thought it was never going to pass. Since I’m rarely sick it was an experience as I didn’t know what was going on. However I’ve been keeping myself hydrated with fluids as the antibiotics has me going to the rest room more then I care to. My poor poop shoot is sore for sure. I like those good flushing but not in that way, not to mention I’ve lost three pounds since all this has started. I like loosing the weight but not this way. I want to thank my entire friends who dropped your well wishes and concerns for me. They are greatly appreciates for sure. I still have a little ways to go but if the fever consists I will be in the Doctors office again in Monday morning. Good news I got the truck back and parked is as I haven’t been up to doing anything at all. Well that’s about it as I wanted to update so the ones who didn’t know what was going on with me. Hugs to you and until fingers meet keys.

New Month, Hump Day

Well another Hump day and the first day of a new month. I’m doing ok except for a swollen arm from something that bit me Friday night. I’ve nursed it long enough and like most stubborn men finally going to the doctor to have him check it out. It’s really been bothering me today and sleep was really awkward sleeping one way so the pain wouldn’t wake me up. I guess I was I’m always trying to see how butch I am and push it to the limits. Truck broke down on me on Monday so now I’m using my mother’s vehicle. Needless to say I didn’t make it work this past Monday. One thing about being on salary you can take off more but I won’t abuse my time that’s for sure. Took the truck to my dads shade tree mechanic and he called this morning and said he wasn’t going to be able to work on it. So I have to go pick it up tonight and take it somewhere else. I tell you I really don’t need these issues in my life right now but the way I look at it. Life is about challenges and if we’re not up for the challenges then we won’t make it in life.

Weekend was restful but as usual always busy on my project. I visited my father as he’s in good spirits. The home took them on a field trip yesterday, Tuesday to the big Aquarium restaurant downtown. He enjoyed getting out then again he enjoys getting out anytime. I’ve been having some issues with the neighbors next door as they are the new folks on the block. They have a dog the constantly barks and it’s really becoming annoying. Sunday morning it started raining about Five AM and the dog started barking as I know it wanted in the house. Two hours later it finally stopped. Lucky I didn’t have to go to work that day or I would have been pissed. I contacted the home owners association and it’s not much they can do but send a letter. So I called 311 to see what my options were and they directed me to the sheriff’s office. I haven’t called them yet but don’t think I won’t. This is really getting out of hand. I get along with all my neighbors but I tell you these folks are kind of off the wall. We’ll see how things transpire in weeks to come.

Well really nothing else to tell here. Just rolling along. I’ll keep all informed on my arm situation as well. Hug to you all and do take care. Until fingers meet keys.

What a fun time, VACATION!

Man what a Vacation. As some of you know I was on vacation and out of touch here for a while. Atlanta and South Carolina were my destinations and I had a wonderful time. I have to thank my wonderful host Mac as he is the bomb. Recapping the start of my vacation, Fridays the 13^th went off without a problem. Actually I got paid for watching films all day. Good thing was I got to leave early which made the weekend that much nicer. Traffic wasn’t bad either as I zipped right along home.

Saturday went to see Jeff as a mutual friend of ours wanted to see him and didn’t know the way as he traveled some distance to see him as well. I didn’t talk much to him as I let them have the time. Jeff seemed to be up beat and I have to say looked great as well. Still I feel there is no future for us or at least at this point. However I have to admit I was a little jealous watching him interact with this person. Although he said they have no sexual relations I feel to differ as this mutual friend talks about him as if he were his life. I know what time it is but haven’t let on to this friend that Jeff and I have a past. After the hour was over we went to a late breakfast to meet Jeff’s Mother. I already knew her but for our mutual friend this will be his first time. I was shocked to see the shiner on his mothers face as she said she walked into a doorway but I think it was from something else. Still I let that be. Went and got my hair cut and then home to rested up and put some finishing touches on the publication. Still have some things that need to go back to the editor and I’ve taken care of that this Monday morning July the 23^rd. Next off to the printers, and then send them out.

Sunday made sure all my reservation and all were in order and packed as well really nothing went on this day.

Monday I had some light running around to do (saw my dad) before catching my plane which was delayed for 40 minutes. I guess I couldn’t complain as there were folks there for two hours a head of me. Plane was suppose to leave at 4:49 PM we didn’t get off the ground until 5:30PM. Didn’t reach Atlanta until 8:30 PM and didn’t get out of there with the rental car until nine or so. I was really glad I didn’t have to go to baggage clam as there were so many folks there it was a shame. I’m told Atlanta is one of the biggest air ports in the U.S. and I’m in titled to believe it. Got lost driving out of Atlanta airport and ended up taking the scenic route around the city. I finally made it to Mac’s as it was reaching 10:44pm that evening. I got settled, made out my schedule for the next day and laid it down as I was beat. It was way too late to be making phone calls so I put that off until the following day.

Tuesday I took time out to remember my good friend LeRoy as he passed this day of a massive heart attack three years to this date. There his hardly anything left of his place as his father sold it and they’ve since placed townhomes on the property. I have a few pictures of him to keep his memory alive. I got up early and started making phone calls to set up two photo shoots. There were suppose to be four for that day but two canceled on me. Or for a nicer word they didn’t answer their phones. Its ok, no matter how good looking one is I’m not going to chase them to try and get them to do a photo shoot. I was grateful for the ones who did and they are some great pictures indeed. One lived on the northeast side of town which took me about and hour and a half to get there. I was surprised as to how quickly I adapted to the city driving. However, I did get lost and loss some valuable time coming from Mac’s place. Since school was getting ready to start for him again he was on the job getting this class room together. Got those shoots done and meet Mac for dinner and then back to the house. We lounged around the house and cuddled most of the night. Was a lovely evening at best.

WEDNESDAY, Was my Birthday. I turned 47 this day and my phone was blowing up. Good to know I have friends and family out there who care about me. Mac went and got breakfast for us and I accompanied him to the school to see his class rooms as he’s both the band and Chorus director. We spent the morning there then went to get some lunch. I had two photo shoots later that day as well so shortly after that I was off and running. I made it home around 10:00 p.m. that night as I had dinner with one of the models. I for sure will stay in touch with him. He’s a very nice man with good conversation as well as listener. Mac was a sleep when I returned and I woke him up to let him know I was back, and then went to bed as I had an early day tomorrow.

Thursday morning I was to have a photo shoot at noon before I drove over to South Carolina but he was a no show as well. I got a call from my sister that my Uncle who had been suffering from cancer passed this day. It was kind of a relief as he won’t be suffering anymore. Mac and I went back to the school them went to eat lunch and shortly after 2:30p.m. I took off for South Carolina. I made it there around 5:30p.m. Traffic was horrible and since Mac lives on the south part of town there was an extra hour added to my travel time as it only 135 miles from Atlanta to Greenville. Just as I got settled on to the hotel Rodney called and we met in the hotel parking lot for a few minutes as I had a photo shoot to do there shortly afterwards. The second one canceled out on me as well. Went over to do the photo shoot and the outside pictures went well but once we got inside the lighting wasn’t so good so the pictures weren’t coming out to my liking. After trying to reset the camera a few times we lost light so I rescheduled the rest for the next day. Left there and went to dinner with David and Rodney. Met Jason who is a friend of Rodney’s, who also heard about the shoots in the area and was eager to meet me and see the publication. Lovely city Greenville is as well as South Carolina. Kind of took me back in time at one point. I really like the architecture.

Friday morning I got up and had a photo shoot in which I got that taken care of. Rodney had put me on to a story that happened in the city about two months ago so I wanted to get some research on that in which I went to the local library and did so. Later went back to do the rest of the photo shoot from the day before. The camera worked like clock work. David and Rodney met up with me and we all went to dinner and drove the town. However since I was driving back the hotel I wasn’t drinking. However I had chicken fingers and two Teas that added up to five bucks. Man it was a lot of food as I was full by the time we left. Funny story about Tea in Georgia and South Carolina, when you order tea it’s already sweeten as I found out when I added sugar to my tea and it was like syrup. However the young lady that served us felt sorry and brought me a new glass. Saw Rodney’s loft which is very nice by the way. My first time in a loft and I can say I think that would be something do able for me. Nice view as well.

Saturday checked out and made my way home but stopped off at this camp ground and resort Rodney and Mac told me about, to get a story there as well. Ran into Tom one of the owners. What can I say about Tom? He’s a character that’s for sure. The interview should have taken only 30 to 40 minutes as I ended up spending two and a half hours there. I will for sure be back there and get Tom to pose for the publication as well. I made it back to Atlanta as I had one more shoot that evenings and then home to Mac. He wasn’t feeling well as our plan was he was going to drive up to the resort and I would meet him there and we’d drive back. Come to find out Friday he was running a fever so I was in rush to give him a little tender love and care. We cuddled a little and watched Dream Girls since I hadn’t seen it then laid it down as I had to get up very early to catch my plane.

Sunday I got up before Mac as my internal clock work me up. Got ready and said my goodbyes to Mac and then headed to the airport in which I was sweating as it was night when I drove from there a few days ago and things surely looked different in the early morning than at night. Made my way back and turned in the rental. Got a seventy dollar saving from the coupon I had so I was really happy at that point. Plane was on time as well however I had an hour and a half wait as I got there plenty early, all good as I wanted no issues at all. Not long after I landed mother was calling my phone. Not once but twice as I was exhausted from my flight. So I had to turn off my phone. Had me a four to five hour nap and was ready for the world again. I will be going back to Greenville and Atlanta in a few months as some of the guys I wasn’t able to shoot due to scheduling issues are still willing to do a shoot. So that’s good news. Can’t say where I’m off to next but I’m sure it will be and adventure as well.

Monday was back to work and I felt refreshed and no hassles. I was even calm most of the day which is a good thing as I’m really trying to take over a new leaf at work. I got a call from Richard in Mane and he’s going to be back on Houston come December so that will be nice to spend some time with him. I’ll make sure I’m on hand during his stay. Had some orders to get in the mail later that night so I didn’t get home until later. I went to bed shortly after that.

Over all it was a nice working vacation and meet some wonderful folks whom I’m sure I’ll have lasting friendships with for years to come. Good info on things in the areas as well. To them I thank you all as my project as well as the community are coming together to make this something special indeed. So until fingers meet keys all have a great week ahead. Hugs.

Friday The Thirteenth. DAMN!

Well so far today hasn’t been so bad. However this Friday the thirteen things has me kind of worried. I got up this morning and Saw a wasp in the bathroom and my first thought was how in the hell did that get in here. It landed on the light fixture over the sink so I couldn’t swat it away. So I picked up the disinfectant spray to coast it out. I zapped it and in the process of it flying away I swatted it with my Bath towel. Now here is where it gets weird. I know I saw it land on the sink behind the faucet then disappeared. Here I am looking around for the damn thing and nothing. It was as if it disappeared. Didn’t really think about it until now as I remembered it was Friday the Thirteenth. OH well. So far it’s been a good day. I had training all day yesterday as well as today. I’m not use to getting up at five in the morning. It’s a killer for sure, and then had to get home to make phone calls for photo shoots next week. I have to say I was a tired camper as traffic was horrible. I saw at least three wrecks yesterday then again that’s a never ending story here in Houston.

I hope I haven’t over extended myself with the Model scheduling. I wasn’t for sure as to who would answer but the respond has been good and all I have to do this weekend is sit down and schedule my time. Since I don’t know the area and how long it’s going to take me to get to these places I’m kind of spreading them out some. No big plans this weekend. More less getting ready to head to Atlanta and South Carolina. Actually I’m kind of nervous as I’ll be traveling alone to a big city that I hardly know anything about. However Mac will be some help but he’s not to king on going into Atlanta. I haven’t talked to Phillip in a couple of day as I think he’s still trekking his way back home. It will be good to see him and David again.

The week has been good especially since the boss have been out of town. Brothers Boy friend is out on the rig for his two week tour so the house has been somewhat quite. He bought him a truck during his stay this time and gave his sister his vehicle. The day before he left he has 20 inch wheels on it. I didn’t say a word but I do know he loose this job his clothes will be packed at the door and ready for him to go. I’ve had it with that B.S. for sure. I haven’t heard anymore from Jeff as I’m going to show a good friend of his from the valley how to get there to see him. I don’t think I’ll go in to see him as Hi will have driven four hours and since they only give you and half our to visit and two visit a week he can have the full hours. Then me, his mother and Hi will go for lunch. Will be the first time I’ve seen his mother since all this has happen but Hi says he’s in good spirits and up beat which is a good thing as all I’ve had for him is bad news, especially when it comes to us. Its good to hear that he hasn’t giving up as last I heard he was at that stage of giving up and very depressed. However I think his mother has a lot to do with that when she brought his sister, the one that turned him in there to see him. She says he needed to face her but I felt that was a bad choice on her part. All it did was depress him and push him back in to one of his states. Well enough of that as I’m off here to head back to training. Man will it ever end. So until fingers meet keys, hugs to you all and do have a great weekend.

Ten More Days To My Birthday

Man what a day yesterday. Got to work and there were five new intakes waiting on me to process but the good news was my boss was leaving on vacation and we have a free week to ourselves. Even better I’ll be on vacation next week myself so I won’t see her for two weeks. YEAH! I’m going to Atlanta and S.C. It will be a working vacation but I’ll find time to relax as well. I’m also looking forward to finally meeting MAC. Plus it will be a new change of men for the publication as most of the men have been from the Texas and Louisiana area. However the publication is growing and soon I can afford to hire some free lance guys to do photo shoots in other areas.

Well it’s been well over a week since I drop info in here. The 4th of July was good. Messed up my week though but all good. Went out with a friend to the movies that day and had a wonderful time. Saw fantastic four. The next two days were busy at work as I received 10 more intakes over that two day period. I’m averaging twenty a week now so it’s really getting ridiculous. Saturday I worked on the project all day. Was a long day for sure but I made some good head way. Was suppose to meet my date later Saturday night as well but ended up moving it to Sunday which worked out best for us. It was a lovely evening for sure. I really enjoyed showing him the city since he’s from out of town. He left this morning on a plane back to Maine. He also gave me some good leads on entertainer in his area for the publication. Went to see my father Sunday morning and he’s doing wonderful. They don’t want him to walk just yet as he’s still having some issues with healing on the foot after the amputation. However he’s still getting up and doing things, which is a good sign. Doctors say he’s healing nicely. He was sitting outside when I arrives so I joined him out there. It was nice and windy at first but later on started getting kind of warm for me. My father is old school and use to working in the heat so he felt fine. Plus it gets like of cold to him in the rehab center. We visited for about two hours and then I needed to get home to work on the project some more. He’s allowed to have a four hour pass and told my mother that he wished I had taken him home for a bit. It didn’t piss me off but he never asked me to do that. So next time I’ll take him on an outing since we’re not even five minutes away from him.

I got a letter from Jeff this weekend as well. The first one I received from him in two weeks. I was under the impression he was pissed at me after my last letter to him. I wasn’t so easy on him but I guess he got over that. Still I don’t know what he expects of me as we’re not a couple and I don’t see a future there for us now. Once he’s convicted he will have a record and it’s really going to be hard on him to find a decent job as I’m surely not going to take care of him. I believe a man should work and two should work together to build a comfortable life for each other. He couldn’t do that for me or us for all that matters. Just to many bad memories in that relationship. Then again I knew what I was getting into when I agreed to the relationship. Still I wouldn’t have gone into it but he was pursuing me. Now that he’s behind bars all of the sudden he’s starting to say the things I want to hear. An hour short and a dollar late. However the bad part is no one knows what his sentence will be. He could get anything from five to life and they can be stacked that as well since there are three counts that really could hurt him. My biggest fear for him is, if his mother passes he has no one since his family members other than his mother has been supportive of him or gone to see him. The other thing is he’s always been there for him when they needed him but when this comes about now he’s the black sheep of the family. They all don’t want anything to do with him. I know there is no excuse for what he’s done but there will be consequences from it. I won’t stop being his friend over it but I know how far to take it as I did work for the prison system for fifteen years so I have learned a few things or two. I do feel sorry for him and what he’s got to go through and endure as well. One would say I still have feeling for him and I can say I do but one doesn’t stop loving someone as deeply as I loved him. Well enough of that. I think I’ve caught up for the week here so until fingers meet keys all have a good one and have a great week a head.

Last Week Of Pride

Hey All

I guess all have been wondering where I’ve been. I’ve been so busy that sometime I don’t know if I’m coming or going. Last weekend of Pride and it's only fitting that pride would end on the last day of the week as well. Last weekend was our pride parade and festival. It rained most of the day; however I did get out and took some pictures of the parade. Here it is a week later and I have yet to look at any of the pictures. I don’t know if I’m going to do a story on parade for the publication or not as I wasn’t too pleased with the parade. It just didn’t have that, pizzas as past years. Although it rained most of the day it didn’t stop a lot of the festival or its goers. There was a good turn out as always but down from last year and year before that. I saw a few families out both straight and gay. We were lucky the rain did stop just in time for the parade to start as we do ours at night.

It’s Friday morning and I’m feeling pretty good after a good nights read and a little J.O. Session. I got a call already from the job about the kid’s graduation. I can feel it’s going to be one of those days for sure. I had training this week to start my 40 hours for my 80 certification every two years and since I was just re certified this past April this class I took will start the new 80 and 40 hours I need. However it messed up my week royally as I’m not use to getting up that early in the morning, being evening shift, and running on four and a half hours sleep. I ended up working a little over eleven hours that day and I’m still feeling the affects. We have a graduation as I mentioned today for our Vocational Education Program (VEP) kids. This program was designed to give these kids who are 16 and 17 a GED education as some may have fallen behind in school and just wouldn’t be able to catch up so this is a way for them to get and education and learn a skill and trade at the same time. Part of the program requires them to get their GED and we transport them to our near by junior college to learn their trade and skills. The collage created a special program just for that and we’ve had a very good success rate. We put on a graduation ceremony for the kids so they will have some since of accomplishment since they wouldn’t be walking across a stage from their regular school. In this class we have three valedictorians who passed the GED with flying colors on the first tire. One in particular who I’m very proud of hadn’t been in school for a couple of years pasted the highest of the class. I normally don’t get to close to the kids while they are there but if you were to see this kid he is a man before his time. Football looking husky boy as I’m sure he will make some young lady very happy when he’s ready to start a relationship. I have to say he’s been no trouble since his stay of four and a half months and I will be sad to see him go. Which is why I don’t get to emotionally attached to the kids as it does hurt when they leave. I’ve been taking pictures all week and just got them finished this Thursday. It’s not my best work but it’s something to commemorate their achievement.

As of yesterday I still haven’t heard from Jeff. Hi, his friend says he hasn’t heard from him either. Last I saw him he was very depressed and said he wasn’t going to contest and take the case to trial as he didn’t want to put the kids through that. His mother brought his sister us there to see him. Yes the one that turned him in there in which he had no words for her and said he couldn’t look at her either. Now what was the mother thinking I have no idea. He wasn’t in a good mood when I saw him last and he being Bipolar I’m just afraid it’s starting to hit him again. His lawyer isn’t doing much for him and it seems I have been the only one who has been actually seeking help for him. Of course I can’t pay for a lawyer but there has to be someone out there to help him other than a court appointed lawyer. I’ve been getting a lot of info from friends who have been passing it on to me but they all have reached dead ends. His mother has been so upset about this that she’s been hospitalized a couple of time. We all hate to see him in this state but when you’re facing Five to life well that’s a big deal. As much as I care for him and still love him I can’t and won’t stick my neck cause a relationship like that doesn’t go anywhere. I don’t betray him as a friend but I can’t wait for him to get out and then go back to what was a one sided love. I just feel betrayed by him. I’ve been trying to get past the past but my defenses keep coming up, which is one of the reasons why I’ll be looking forward to my trip next month. It will give me a out look and to some possibilities to maybe a possible relationship.

Project, I’m running a little behind schedule but I feel I will be able to send them out next week something. Lots of work this weekend and no distraction for sure. Just have to stay focused and on track with everything. It’s really been hard as you can read what’s all been going. I guess I’m stronger than I though I have been since I haven’t had a nervous break down or anything like that. Priorities, they have to be in order for me to keep going forward and at this point I’m still cleaning the closet to get there. Will I make it, I have no doubt. Well that’s about it for now so until fingers meet keys all take care and do have a great weekend my friends. Hugs.

Pride Month, Third Hump Day Of The Month

I hope all are having a good week. Recapping my weekend, Friday’s I have been mentioning that have really been bad. Got lucky that this past Friday as no intakes came in however it was the last weekend that our higher level residents could go home for the weekend until graduation later this month June 29th, We don’t let them go home the weekend before that as it would be to easy for them to get into trouble and violate so we don’t want them to do that as our gold is to promote success not failure. I have to say we got them out without and hitch but as I was getting ready to go the residents decided to have their own Friday night fights. I heard some commotion going on in the dinning hall area, low and behold there were six residents in the dinning hall all spread out to keep them separated. Apparently they had been fighting in the dorm area and pulled out before we had a riot on our hands. Needless to say it was ten minutes before my shift ended but you know this kid checked out early. Having working in the correction business for 21 years now I know better and got my ass out of there.

Saturday I didn’t do to much. Worked on my project as the third issue is fast coming up. Bob John wanted to take me to dinner for taking his pictures on Tuesday. He’s been suffering with and ear infection here lately as it’s bad enough he wears hearing aids so it makes things a little harder for him to hear. However he tool me to Salt Grass. Good meal and conversation as well. Went back to his home and met the gang as my friends Jerry and Joe were in town. So it turned out to be a lovely evenings. Bob John went to be on me early however with the ear infection and all I’m sure that was draining to him. Then again he and I will always be good friends. Not that I wouldn’t mind being his love interest but he has interest in Hispanic men so that surely counts me out as I’m not even going to try to change his mind in that department.

Sunday was Fathers day and I went to spend some time with my father who is still in a rehab hospital. I have to say I’m worried about his memory loss as it would be the medication they’ve got him one or lack of activity like reading. Dialing a phone has become a chore for him as he pauses to long to try to remember the numbers. My best friend Steve said his mother is going through the same things. It’s good to have a friend who is going through the same thing as there is no manual for all this plus it helps us to be able to talk about it among one another. My sister and Nephew came by during my visit in which I had to get on his behind for getting on my computer. He made a comment stating, I didn’t know you were going to be so sensitive about it. Oh you know I had to cut my visit short with my dad at that point as I didn’t want to go off on him on front of my dad being in his condition and his day as well. Plus I had to leave as I wanted to go see Jeff in jail and maybe bring some joy in his life under the circumstance. Got to see him and he was in good spirits for the most but still somewhat emotional too. What more can one do is all I can say. Made it home and went to work on project again as Third issue in coming up soon.

Monday work was good. No major issues as I got 4 intakes that day. However I released 3 so I only gained one. Tuesday I finally got a call from the lawyer Jeff asked me to contact about doing a pro bono case for him. Of course I knew the answer to what he was going to tell me and it was no he wouldn’t take his case. He said to do his case would coast about twenty thousand dollar in which his mother doesn’t have and I’m sure not going to put myself out for him like that either. If Jeff and I had been a couple none of this would have happen and he wouldn’t be facing eight counts of charges. What’s scary is they can stack the cases and he could get up to live in prison. Man I can only imagine what he’s going through at this point. However I won’t stop being his friend from this as he will surely need one but it will be a total life change for him for sure. I don’t want to see him go to prison but there has to be consequences for his action. I hear folks tell me don’t allow myself to fall in love with him when you know there is no future with him. I hear what they are saying and know better too. Still I can’t help but feel sorry for him. The bad part was calling his mother to tell her that the lawyer wasn’t going to take his case unless he can get paid in which I don’t blame him but he did tell me something I need to mention to Jeff so I will have to get back there and see him again here soon as the sooner I tell him the better. I was chatting with my best Friend Steve and he gave me a lot of lawyers and services to call to see if they can help and I did make some calls but after and exhausting day of hearing the same things I know I need to give up and quit spinning my wheels on that. I care for my friend but I’m not going to stick my neck out for him. I hate to say it but he had his opportunity to make grace with me and choose another path. Constant wrong decision because of his hard headedness but I’m trying to put the past behind me and although I have moved forward there is always the, what if.

Well today is Hump day and had the fifth of six meetings for the month and it wasn’t so bad and even had a lovely lunch as well. However I didn’t stay for the whole meeting as I have way to much work to do and behind on that with all the intakes that have been coming in. on schedule with the publication so I’m glad of that. It’s been hot here in Houston and was awaken to rain this morning. Supper thunderstorms but no flooding like up north has been getting. When I left for work it was muggy as temperatures were reaching the mid 90’s and heat index of 104. Bad part is it’s not going to get any better as the official day of summer starts June 21st. Well that’s it for now so until fingers met key all do have a good one as I look forward to chatting with you all soon. Hugs.

Pride Month, Second Hump Day Of The Month

Hello My Friends.

I hope all are doing well. Not a lot to tell on this Wednesday. Got up early and went to work as usual. Found out I have six more kids coming to input and three leaving. However they wanted to send us nine but my superintendent said no we have no, I’ll take six as we’re still trying to figure out where to put them, so I’m sure I’ll get the other three tomorrow. It was just a crazy day but for me it wasn’t stressful at all or I wasn’t stressed today. My work wife sure was. She went to price line and sent up hotel reservation and got rooked. They didn’t give her the room she asked for or the bed size she asked for either and when she tried to cancel it they told her she would still be out of a $65.00 charge. So I told her to dispute it with her credit card company and she did but they told her she needed to wait until it was posted. Right now it shows as pending, so that upset her most of the day as I kind of stayed way as I knew she wasn’t in a good mood. My immediate boss tried to set me off as well, sending me an email mentioning how we’re a little behind on some of my regular duties. DAH! 23 new intakes last week and up today foe the week 14, what does she expect? At first I wanted to get up and go give her a piece of my mind but I took a chill pill and didn’t bother to respond as she knows how busy we are and had the nerve to send me something like that. I really think she does this to piss me off but I’m trying to break a new leaf here and didn’t bother to respond or go to her office. Machine I’m not.

Moving on, it rained here a little and was thundering when I left the job but I never saw a drop at work. Roads were a little wet but other than that not enough to disrupt my commute home. I tried to call my best friend Steve tonight but he wasn’t home. I guess he’s out getting vacuumed as he would put it. (Getting himself a Blow Job from the local bookstore) I gave then up back in 2000. Nothing there for me and I’m looking for real love not something at the spur of the moment. It’s been two year since I’ve been to a bath house and the only reason I went then was Jeff liked to get in the hot tub and pool. Here in Houston we have two and its funny how they work. The newest one, Club Houston caters to the younger and fit crowd. A little on the expensive side as I’m told but I’ve never been in that one as I don’t care for twinky looking me or someone who’s modeling all time as I hear it’s a lot of that going on in there. The second, Midtowne which has been around for Decades As far as I can remember since 1975, it cater to the older and husky men. However I found out that a lot of married men were starting to hit the place. Another thing is Seems at certain times of the evening it kind of gets segregate. Shortly after eleven you don’t see that many whites in the place and surely come 2 AM the majority there are black and Hispanic or that’s the way it was three years ago. Since I haven’t been in a long time I have no clue at all.

Enough of that, its hump day and no letter from Jeff. I’m thinking he’s ok. I haven’t tried to call the lawyer for him since the last time. Hi, his friend told me in a conversation we had a day or so ago that he though it would be best if he wrote him a letter and explained his case. Still I can tell this a small firm and I doubt he will do it probono. (Or however you spell it) I’m really having some emotional feeling about him but I’m sticking to my guns as I know he’s not going to change. Then again I could be wrong as he will surely have plenty of time to reflect on his life ad how he treated others. I’m not going to talk myself into thinking he will. Plus one can say what they want to say from behind bars it’s the actions of when they get out is what shows. Me I’ve been down that road with Russell so I’m surely not going there with Jeff. Why do I seem to attract these type of me I have no idea. Then again I wouldn’t have ever thought I would see Jeff behind bars. I knew he like young men but never would have though it’s cross the line of underage and he’s not along as I’ve heard other men I know who say as long as they are legal which I’ve been disassociating myself from as I know what jail is like as I worked for one for 15 year and I surely don’t care to be a resident there. I for one worked to hard to get to where I am today to throw it all way like that, as a friend of mine told me, “Why bother as there is no future there.” I’m all about risk but when you know it’s one that won’t work, why do it?

I went to see Bob John Tuesday as he asked me to take some pictures of him for his business and Website he’s having done. Plus he wanted some to post on his profile as well. I was going to edit them for him yesterday but I was having some serious issue on my computer. I get home and it was left on as my 20 year old nephew got a hold of it. Let it on some anima site which is how I knew he was on. He’s deep into that. So I rebooted the system so I could get to work fresh. Make a long story short one of my three hard drives was going out and it wasn’t letting my computer boot up. Needless to say I was pissed. One cause my nephew knows he’s not to mess with my computer and two my brother allowed him to do so. Yes I got into his ass about that. Then I got into my nephew. One thing you don’t do is FUCK with my computer. I have to much important work on there that pertains to my project. Yes I have back up copies but the fact that I would have to lead all that again which could take up to four to five hours. I wouldn’t have been a happy camper nor did I want to fool with it. It’s still having its moments and I got a feeling I will be formatting here soon but until them I’ll make due. If I have to reload and operating system I think I’ll give Visa a try. Well that’s about it for this evening so until fingers meet keys, I hope all have a good one for the rest of the week. All who have inquired about my father he seems to be much better today. They have been giving him Hypothermia treatments, which seems to be helping him heal pretty well. I won’t be able to see him until Friday or Saturday. Sunday for sure as its father’s day. Hugs my friend and do take care looking forward to hearing from you all soon.

Second Monday of the Month.

Well we’re halfway into June and I’m sitting here winding down from a Monday long day at work. Prince and his slow jams seem to be mellowing me out at the moment. It looks like it’s been some time since I’ve written here and a lot has happen since then as well. My father is still in the hospital but seems to be much better now that they have changed his medication. He had us worried there for a few days as he was very depressed and crying a lot. Giving use things to take care as he said he didn’t know how much longer he has on this earth. He still gets upset when I walk in the room but it’s more less that he’s happy to see me. I haven’t broken down in front of him but I did on Wednesday morning as it was just over whelming for me. However once I got over that made my peace and was able to function the rest of the week. Work has really been a bitch as I received 23 new kids last week and four today. Normally they would arrive on Tuesday and Thursday but now they’re arriving everyday. I was lucky to release eight so that gave is a little breather room but they kids aren’t there long enough for them to get services.

We had a Job fair on Thursday. I was really surprised at the turn out. I’m told Houston is the place to come for jobs if you’re in the marker. I’m also seeing a lot of out of state plate on vehicles as well. Usually when a company has relocated to Houston you will start seeing a lot of that. Make one wonder why we’re the forth largest city in the U.S. The shuttle took off on Friday as my emails have slowed from my friend there at the Johnson space center. Good to see them busy again as it’s been along time coming. I usually get pictures of the launch but nothing this time again I know they’re busy so in due time.

I received a letter from Jeff last week as well. He didn’t have much to say but did pass off info on a lawyer he would like to see take his case. However with no funds I don’t see that happening and I’m sure he’s not going to do it probono. Still I told him I’ll give him a call to see what he can do as I feel his lawyer now is going to railroad him. Today I receive a call from his friend he calls HI. Seems I know more then what he was told but it was nice to compare notes. I always though Jeff and he had something go as Jeff swears they didn’t. Then again I’m entailed to believe him as Hi would be much too old for Jeff. However when I told Hi I had saw Jeff and told him he lost 75 pounds he made a compliment, “I bet he looks good.” He also talked about Jeff going down to live in his Condo and traveling with him. Now what is that? Still I’m not mad as Jeff and I were over two years ago. However I do hate to see him in such disarray. I miss my friend more than anything. My work wife says it sounds like I’m falling for him again and I do assure her that’s not going to happen as the bad just kept outweighing the good. I know it’s silly to a simple solution but she the bad is outweighing the good one knows it’s time leave that alone. Then some are glutting for punishment. Not me. Jeff has a long way to go before I would even consider going back to him as a partner. Am I still bitter I guess you can say I am as I keep talking of the past in my letter as to how he’s done me wrong? I try and try not to do that but I still need some answers to it all. So that will be posting for later blog entries.

Weekend was quiet as I didn’t have much going on. No get together or parties this weekend. Worked on my project as I had a couple’s photo shoot on Sunday. It was a nice visit and looking forward to placing they’re article in my next issue, a real fun couple to be with. Another mad rush as the third issue is coming up. Orders are steady since the release of the second issue as I guess the first has been getting around as well. No big plans for this week. I’ll be visiting my father on Sunday as it’s Fathers day. Since he’s in the hospital I don’t really know what to get him. He’s been wanting a cell phone but has no use for it in there. However getting it may give him the kick he needs to hurry up and get well and get out of there. He’s been going to Therapy for the past three weeks since his toe amputation and he’s been enjoying getting outside as well. Still I’m afraid he’s going to loose the use of his legs if he not up here soon. He seems to be happy at the moment and that’s all that counts. Well that’s about it for now so until fingers met keys all have a good one and do take care. Hugs.

Second Monday of the Month.

Well we’re halfway into June and I’m sitting here winding down from a Monday long day at work. Prince and his slow jams seem to be mellowing me out at the moment. It looks like it’s been some time since I’ve written here and a lot has happen since then as well. My father is still in the hospital but seems to be much better now that they have changed his medication. He had us worried there for a few days as he was very depressed and crying a lot. Giving use things to take care as he said he didn’t know how much longer he has on this earth. He still gets upset when I walk in the room but it’s more less that he’s happy to see me. I haven’t broken down in front of him but I did on Wednesday morning as it was just over whelming for me. However once I got over that made my peace and was able to function the rest of the week. Work has really been a bitch as I received 23 new kids last week and four today. Normally they would arrive on Tuesday and Thursday but now they’re arriving everyday. I was lucky to release eight so that gave is a little breather room but they kids aren’t there long enough for them to get services.

We had a Job fair on Thursday. I was really surprised at the turn out. I’m told Houston is the place to come for jobs if you’re in the marker. I’m also seeing a lot of out of state plate on vehicles as well. Usually when a company has relocated to Houston you will start seeing a lot of that. Make one wonder why we’re the forth largest city in the U.S. The shuttle took off on Friday as my emails have slowed from my friend there at the Johnson space center. Good to see them busy again as it’s been along time coming. I usually get pictures of the launch but nothing this time again I know they’re busy so in due time.

I received a letter from Jeff last week as well. He didn’t have much to say but did pass off info on a lawyer he would like to see take his case. However with no funds I don’t see that happening and I’m sure he’s not going to do it probono. Still I told him I’ll give him a call to see what he can do as I feel his lawyer now is going to railroad him. Today I receive a call from his friend he calls HI. Seems I know more then what he was told but it was nice to compare notes. I always though Jeff and he had something go as Jeff swears they didn’t. Then again I’m entailed to believe him as Hi would be much too old for Jeff. However when I told Hi I had saw Jeff and told him he lost 75 pounds he made a compliment, “I bet he looks good.” He also talked about Jeff going down to live in his Condo and traveling with him. Now what is that? Still I’m not mad as Jeff and I were over two years ago. However I do hate to see him in such disarray. I miss my friend more than anything. My work wife says it sounds like I’m falling for him again and I do assure her that’s not going to happen as the bad just kept outweighing the good. I know it’s silly to a simple solution but she the bad is outweighing the good one knows it’s time leave that alone. Then some are glutting for punishment. Not me. Jeff has a long way to go before I would even consider going back to him as a partner. Am I still bitter I guess you can say I am as I keep talking of the past in my letter as to how he’s done me wrong? I try and try not to do that but I still need some answers to it all. So that will be posting for later blog entries.

Weekend was quiet as I didn’t have much going on. No get together or parties this weekend. Worked on my project as I had a couple’s photo shoot on Sunday. It was a nice visit and looking forward to placing they’re article in my next issue, a real fun couple to be with. Another mad rush as the third issue is coming up. Orders are steady since the release of the second issue as I guess the first has been getting around as well. No big plans for this week. I’ll be visiting my father on Sunday as it’s Fathers day. Since he’s in the hospital I don’t really know what to get him. He’s been wanting a cell phone but has no use for it in there. However getting it may give him the kick he needs to hurry up and get well and get out of there. He’s been going to Therapy for the past three weeks since his toe amputation and he’s been enjoying getting outside as well. Still I’m afraid he’s going to loose the use of his legs if he not up here soon. He seems to be happy at the moment and that’s all that counts. Well that’s about it for now so until fingers met keys all have a good one and do take care. Hugs.

June 4th Pride Month.

Hello All.

Well I have to say this weekend was a lovely one for sure. Finally had a rest day from the project work and orders are still coming in which is great. Recapping my week and weekend, Wednesday I was on my way home and decided to stop and get me a shake to help me pass the time on the long drive I have nightly. Well when I got off the freeway and pulled up to the light I noticed the truck was starting to over heat on top of smelling hot radiator water. So I pulled it over into the nearest service station and as I expected water was running from the bottom of it. At first I thought it was the water pump but that had been replaced not long again so I knew it wasn’t that. Next I thought about the freeze plugs as the one on the right side had not long been replaces and this one was on the left side. Needless to say after leaving work at 9:00 PM and countless stops at gas station for water, along with a few ditches as well, I didn’t get home until 12:30 AM milking the vehicle home and hoping I wouldn’t burn up the motor in the process. Lucky my father keeps some jugs and things in the vehicle for cases like this. I don’t like driving the vehicle much but since mine is still down I have no choice in the matter. However working on getting mine fixed. I’ve decided not to replace the motor but have the one rebuilt. Anytime someone replaces the engine there is always a change that something wont work and Houston has some really hot summer days so air is a must.

Thursday I ended up using my mother’s vehicle in which she was happy for me to clean out as I can’t drive around in a dirty vehicle. (Does School Teacher come to mine? They are the worst) Still I had transportation. Friday morning I rented a vehicle for the week, Malibu in which I’m not to fond of. I should have requested another HHR. I have to say the HHR has grown on me for sure. I’d surely buy one but I have a vehicle that I need to get repaired as it’s almost paid for and still have a few years left. Went to work and as Fridays are becoming days of HELL! I got eight new intakes that day on top of temporary home visits. I was in high gear from the time I got to work. I was ready for a break when it was over. I ended up taking one of my co workers home as she had 500 bucks worth of work done to her vehicle to pass inspection. From what she told me they needed to do she got ripped royally. Oh well they saw a woman coming. Got home and took the truck to one of my father’s shade tree mechanics then home and took it easy as I’m still catching up on the season finales of my shows I taped.

Saturday morning I got up for the long drive to see Jeff in the county jail. It had been over 7 months since I drove that drive and a lot as changed as they have finished the construction on the Nolan Ryan express way. Not to mention all the new house construction going up that way. Made it to the county jail for his county and I really wasn’t nervous to bet there or going in as I worked in Jails most of my adult life. However I was nervous to see him. I didn’t know what to expect. When he arrived he looked thinner that I recall. I was expecting Long hair and nails but he surprising looked cleaned up. Orange isn’t his color but he didn’t look bad in it. He says he’s lost 75 pounds which puts him at 285. They only gave us 30 minutes as the call was being monitored. Still we managed to cover a little. The rest will have to be told in letters. From what he tells me, his lawyer is sending him up the creek without a paddle. Told Jeff that he doesn’t try these kind of cases so that’s a negative. Plus they haven’t offered him a plea bargain or anything. He said if the would offer it he would take it. It’s better than facing 40 years in prison. However he had been talking about killing himself and tried as well. They have him on medication and he’s getting some Psyche help as well. Since his lawyer has been delaying the trial it could be up to two years before he’s tried. Good part is he will have time served for it. When I left it was hard to see him go and I’m sure he was emotional as well. Did he do any of this; well he hasn’t denied any of it. Did he do all what they say he did we’ll that’s questionable. Needless to day I was thinking about him most of the day. Reminiscing of our past but what kept me in line was I couldn’t get passed how he treated me and how stubborn he was to get him there in the first place. The only reason why I went was cause his mother asked me to go as she was concerned about him. I have to say I was concerned as well as you’re not that close to someone and ever stop caring. I was to have a dinner date later that evening but he canceled on me as he had a rough day and after he explained I fully understood. However he did ask could we do it the next day in which I agreed.

Sunday morning I finally got myself together as I went to bed late on top of a J.O. session in which I needed pretty bad since the moon and a blue moon at that was full. No willing partakers so what is a guy to do. Early morning the mechanic called about my father’s pickup and said the truck was ready and I could come and get it, in which I did. Got home and read the paper and work on more of the project but not as heavy as I normally would. Call my date about four o’clock to see if we were still on and he agreed. We meet up about seven fifteen and departed shortly after nine. I have to say it w as really fun evenings. However I didn’t want to be pushy and come on to strong on the first days. Besides I don’t go to bed with men on the first day. Although he is nice looking. Not much went on after that as I came home and continued to catch up on my season finales. The DVD recorded was really busy the past two months. Since there usually isn’t much on during the summer months it’s a good time to catch up for sure. Today at work not much went on and it was an easy day for sure. Had time to catch up on a few things as well, however all hell will break loose for sure. On that note I’m going to close here so until fingers meet keys all have a good week as I hope you all had a good weekend as well. Chat soon and big hugs.

Memorial Day Weekend

Hello All

I guess most of you have been wondering what’s been happening as I haven’t been updating this as often. Well two weeks ago I mentioned my father was back in the hospital for his foot and later sent to a rehab center to finish his Therapy. A week later he was placed back in the hospital for and infection that developed in his foot. He had developed a blister on his foot that wasn’t healing well, in the process caught an infection. Diabetes I hear will do that to you on top of his dialyses. To make a long story short they were talking about amputating his foot because the infection in which I have to say I wasn’t too happy about when I got the news. I went to see him as soon as I got word as he seemed to be taking the news pretty well. I know he was keeping a straight face for us. Still we wanted to get a second opinion in which we did. We ended up having him moved to the Methodist Hospital down town and tomorrow they’re doing surgery on this foot to remove part of the bone and not his whole foot. I was relieved of that. The length of his big toe will be shorter but again it’s better than having the whole foot removed. I think he will be pleased as he was in a lot of pain and since I’m like him anything is better than having pain.

I have to work on Monday but I’ve been invited to a send off party on Saturday for a dear friend. It will be good to spend sometime with good friends again. Plus it will be a nice break from all that’s been going the past few weeks and I even have an escort. (See picture below to right) Second issues all mailed out and I’ve only seen one major mistake but getting better. So far all have been pleased with it. Working on Third issue as well as website so that will be ready for a June release. My brothers play toy will be home on Sunday and I’m not looking forward to that as it’s been really nice not having him around. However I hear he may be pulling out three days later as he’s ready to make some serious money. Off Shore work in which I don’t think he has the balls to stick with it. I have lost faith on him keeping a job for long periods of time. Then again I could be wrong on this one. See his problem is he wants to make a quick buck but he also has to learn that he needs to save his money as well. One thing on this job if he keeps it he’ll have goof benefits and that’s something he needs. I told my brother if he doesn’t keep this job this time I’ll have his stuff packed at the front door waiting for him as he has no choice in the matter this time. I’m all for helping someone but there comes a time when you have to help yourself as well and if he thinks this will be a free ride well he has another thing coming for sure.

School is out and since I have three teaches in the family all will be wanting one thing or another, rather it be running errands or picking up someone. Two and a half months till the next semester and I for one are already for them to get back to work and they haven’t had the first day off. My brother isn’t too bad on stuff like that but more my sister and mother. Since my father is in the hospital she’ll be preoccupied with him. However I have a business to run so that’s not going to be and option for me. Not to mention on the job I have been receiving kids on the job every day and not just two or three. We’re way over capacity and headquarters wants us to drop it down by 30 kids. Not going to happen when they continue to send them from the evaluation center. Can one say communication break down? To be honest it’s like we’re at war with the E-Val center. So something will have to give here, not to mention we’re all stressed to no end.

I haven’t had time to write Jeff back as you read I’ve been pretty busy. However I will work on sending him a letter over the weekend. I can tell he’s been feeling sorry for himself as he keeps talking about the death prenatally and stuff like that, then again I’ve been doing this business for twenty two years now so I kind of know those signs. My conscience is clear if he does decide to do harm to himself. He being Bipolar does worry me but I won’t let it slow me down. Since my mind and heart aren’t clouded by love for him I’m not that easy to put on his side. As I have said in the past I will be his friend but I know how far that friendship will go. He seems to know where he’s going to live when he’s released. The hard part is he hasn’t any answers yet as they keep setting back the trial which lets me know the prosecution doesn’t have a case or someone isn’t talking. Then again the question is will this person he’s going to house sit for be around or a living when he’s release as I hear this man in up in the age. He seems to think he could get probation and if that happens I would be happy for him. He did ask me could he come stay with me if he was able to bond out and of course I would have to decline but I don’t think that would happen as he was a is flight risk. The running when this all happen was harmful to him on that. Jeff will always have a place in my heart and I have given him all kinds of chances but again when he told me he enjoyed the sex we had but as far as loving me he just didn’t feel it in his heart that was the last draw for me. Why would I want to stay with someone who doesn’t feel the same about me as I did for him? He wrote that I would always have a special place in his heart and wish thing had been different for us but his head was in a different place then but says he’s getting help for it now. For me I think it’s a little too late. I’ll admit the dick was good and fit just right however there was no passion from him. Either he didn’t know how or just didn’t want to. I’ve seem him give his dog more passion than he gave me and I did let him know it. As I look back on it way to many signs but I was blinded by love not to see them. Well enough of that as it’s a thing of the past for me. I do which all a great weekend as I’m going to make the best if mine as well. So until fingers meet keys all take care and plenty of hugs and on those who have passed before us.

Day After Hump Day

OH it’s been one of those weekends and weeks as well. Just now taking time out to write here now that I’m feeling a little better. All last weekend I’ve had this headache that just wouldn’t go away and I really believe it was due to my high blood pressure along with stress of my father and the project. When I get like that I’m not worth a damn and it was showing for sure. Since I wasn’t getting out of the house much over the weekend it seem the house was making things worst as I wasn’t getting any fresh air. When I did get out my head was hutting even worse. It got so bad that hot showers weren’t helping. However I do limit myself on medications as I don’t want to be depended on them but don’t get me wrong I will take them when I need them. The only thing that I found that was really worth my while and worked was Benidril. (Or however you spell it) Sad part is, it puts me to sleep so need less to day I was sleeping most of the weekend. Last Friday got word that my father was being moved from the Hospital to a rehab hospital which is good news but he doesn’t seem to be making any progress at the moment. They won’t let him put his feet on the ground and he’s still I a little pain from the stint they put in his leg. Just really exhausting to run a business, have a job and checking on him from time to time. Seem since I work evenings I’m the more extendable one but that’s got to stop as I have a business to run and I can’t been letting folks down and I especially don’t want to loose credibility.

I’ve received two letters from my Ex Jeff, for those of you who don’t know he’s in jail facing child molestation charged. He cut all contact with me here for a while. Lord only knows why but all of the sudden I get a letter from him and another one this past Wednesday as well. From what his mother tells me he’s had a preliminary hearing and they wouldn’t let anyone in there but they didn’t do anything either. The first letter I received from him stated that he was going back to trial in July. The second letter he said they have moved it back to Sept now. So that’s letting me know that the prosecutors don’t have a case or someone isn’t talking. Jeff says he’s ready to get out of there and do probation or serve time but just hurry up and get it over with. However he keeps talking of then giving him the death penalty in which I haven’t head of anyone getting the death penalty for such a crime. My guess he has all this time on his hands he’s thinking about what he’s done. He says he’s getting help while in there as I hope they don’t use it against him in court, still not my problem. He asked if he could come live with me if he could make bond and time has to go to trial. I don’t see that happening as they will surely look at him as a flight risk as he ran when all this started. Plus he can’t stay in his county because of the kids and coming into the next county I would think be a no, no as well. I hate to say it but I don’t have trust in him as he’s stood in my face and told me a bold face lie on several occasion which doesn’t hold well with me. Not to say if his heart wasn’t in it at first why would his heart be in it now? He says he was in a different place when he and I were together and even with help that’s not going to change. I’ve heard stuff from him like, I feel controlled by you or I don’t feel it in my heart. He and I could have gone far but he was in his own little world and it kept falling in around him. I’m just glad I got out when I did and that was two years ago now.

Do I still feel something for him folks have asked? Well I can say one doesn’t loose feeling for someone they have been that close too. I guess I’m not your typical gay men. I like values and meaning in a relationship. One where we can work together to become one and build and empire for ourselves and children if they came into the picture. I do feel this will be his second change to make a big change in his life since he won’t have any baggage or responsibilities. I know the courts won’t let him near his kids again until they eighteen and they grandparents on her side surely won’t let them have anything from him at all. I’ve made my peace with Jeffery and have moved on. I won’t stop being his friend and I can say I care, as well as have history together. I do miss our conversations from time to time however I won’t be used or taken down buy someone who need to help them self before moving forward. Maybe why I haven’t gone to see him in the detention center.

Today is a lovely day out and cool as cold front has passed though yet again in the middle of may. Mother nature just doesn’t know what she wants to do. No headache today so I’m happy of that and feeling good and rested too. It’s been pleasant out here for sure. Gas prices on he other hand haven’t, I paid $2.91 to day and put $50.00 bucks in the vehicle and drove down the road after I filled it up and saw $2.85. Now you know I was pissed for sure. Oh well something really needs to be done for sure. I know there is someone out here who has invented a pill that you can drop in your tank and fill it up with water and have gas to run your vehicle. Will be here soon working on getting my vehicle repaired. It’s been sitting up for seven months now with a dead battery, out dated tags and soon here will need to be inspected. I’m just going to have to bit the bullet and get it done as it’s going to be a hot one here in Houston for sure. I have to say so far this year has been eventful and prosperous as well and on that note that’s about it for now so until fingers meet keys all have a good one and I do apologize for the delay of not writing here sooner. I’ll try to do much better. I do thank all you for your prayers, IM’s and Emails concerning my father. He’s a tough old man and rolling right along. Hugs all.

Yesterday Was Hump Day

Well yesterday was Hump day and I was humping for sure. Not the way I would have liked to been but just an all around busy day. Recapping my weekend up to today its been one hell of a week. Last Friday I took a scheduled day off to go to Austin to do photo shoots and was going to spend some time with one who I had been chatting with on line for sometime now as well as get his pictures. That Thursday night I called to confirm if we were still on but didn’t get in touch with him but I did leave a message. Later that night I got a call back from him stating that he was going to have to leave to go back home. Well not to call him a liar but the excuse he gave me just didn’t sit right with me at all. However I wasn’t going to push the issue on it as he told me he would be in Houston in May so I said lets do it then. Well needless to say my plans changed for the weekend.

On Friday I go the rental and drove up to Austin to me Michael for a five o’clock shooting. I was really surprised to make it to Austin in two hours and fifteen minutes when it’s normally a three hours drive. I was really moving as I was running late that day but got there in plenty of time to Meet Michael and start the Shoot. Austin Traffic is really horrible however it’s a lovely city and hilly for sure. I can’t visit but I don’t think I could live there. I got to thinking an ex co worker as I hadn’t heard from him in a while and low and behold he called from out o the blue as I was on my way to Austin and wanted to see me. Something about curling my toes which instantly made me go hard in the vehicle, but it wasn’t going to happen due to me heading to Austin. I did tell him I would give him a call Saturday when and we could talk about it. A long story there as I’ll have to explain later on. Did the Photo shoot with Michael which lasted about three to four hours and then I made my way back to Houston as I was suppose to visit with, who we’ll call the out of Towner, but again he made other plans come to find out as later over the weekend I called the hotel to see if he was still checked in and he was. Did I feel crushed? Yes, but one can’t cry over something they never had. No big deal. The drive home was good as well as I made it home in another two hours or so pulling into the drive way shortly after eleven this evening.

Saturday I put some finishing touches on the publication so I could get it off to the printers. I did call my ex co worker and no answer but he did call me on later on that evening. He was still on the job and wasn’t able to get away until late that evening. To make a long story short nothing transpired. Since I had made plans to go Watch the game with Bob I ended up going over there and we watched our Rockets Loose to Utah. It was a good game at first but the end was the pits as they got so far behind they couldn’t catch up. So each team were tide two games appease. Bob was a lovely host as we had mixed fruit and yogurt as a snack during half time. Game was over about midnight as it was way passed his bedtime so I made my way home. Plus I think he wanted to get some studying in for his inspectors test on Monday. Sunday made my way back to Austin to do what was suppose to be two shoots but one canceled on me as he didn’t feel right taking the photos as his regular barber wasn’t available but had someone else do it and they cut it to short. So I didn’t want to push the issue about it as it would have come out in his photos and I want the models to be comfortable as possible so I can get some natural pictures. He and I did agree to meet on and I would tell him more about the publication in which we did. Lovely home he has and I got some good ideas of doing a shoot for him with him as well. I made plans to go back up there to do a shoot later on in the month but looks like June. However I did send him a copy of the publication in which he should be receiving any day now.

Did the photo shoot as well and visited with Michael, Jim and Lenard again. I only stayed about an hour as they were pretty tired from their trip to San Antonio and Corpus Christi over the weekend. They left shortly after the photo shoot on Friday. Once I left there I made my way home and arrived shortly after midnight. Monday didn’t have to work as I took that day off as from past experience I needed the rest to recoup from the weekend. I got the rental car back before the heavy rain arrived then went to pick up my father from Dialyses and ended up taking him back to the hospital to have them check the machine they have on him to help heal his wound he has on his foot that’s slowly healing. By the time I was finished with him I needed a nap in which I did. Didn’t watch the game as the Rockets played that evening and I hear they won so that put up three to two games of seven. GO ROCKETS!

Tuesday I was enlightened to a surprise at work. They sent me eleven kids that day so needless to day I didn’t finish the last one right in the last few minutes before my shift ended. I was kind of ready for that so I didn’t complain about it however it did slow me down on other work I needed to take care of. Oh well what else was new. Got to thinking about my ex co worker again and thought he might call but I’ve come to the conclusion that I don’t need to get involved with him as all I’ll do is get my feeling hurt as I see the whole Jeff thing happening here again. Oh by the way three months later and I still haven’t heard from him so I guess he’s mad at me and don’t want any contact with me. I guess that’s a good thing as I needed to get over him for I really didn’t see a future for me and him. The sex was ok but nothing to write home to mother about. To be honest I really don’t think he knows how to love a person or me the way I would like to be loved. A lot of issues there that I can’t help him out with and he’s got a long struggle a head of him. Could he have been the man of my dreams well he surely had the looks and features I looked for in a man but there comes a time when you have to let things go. Same thing with the ex coworker, He’s got it going on in my book but I see no future there and I need someone who is stable and will be there for me as I he.

Wednesday, Hump day rolled around and like Tuesday was a beautiful day. It was suppose to be 40% change of rain that day but it didn’t transpire. Just kept and over cast which was ok as long as it wasn’t raining. Got to work late as I had to pick up my father from Dialyses again which wasn’t a problem as the job knows the situation and have been really wonderful about it. I don’t know what’s wrong with one of the departments at work but they can’t seem to keep folks in that department. One whom I started talking a liking to was transferring out as he puts it was asked to transfer to another department. So on the way to work I stopped off to get him a departing cake. I figured no one else had done anything for him after all he had not long lost his long time girlfriend to a heart attach. However I always had a feeling he was of the family. He kind of has this Dundee things going on and he’s a red head which helps as well. He was really appreciative of that as it was my pleasure. He will be missed but I have his number so I will be in touch from time to time. After the meeting I was trying to have a slight headache and took some medication that my work wife had and LORD it made me sleepy the rest of the evening. I had to go to my office and close the door so I could take me a quick cat nap. I’ll have to watch that the next time. They didn’t have a lunch for the meeting in which I was glad I ate before I arrived. Later that evening they had smothered pork chops for the kids which were good so I got me a couple. On top of the meds working on me my belly was full which made me supper sleepy. I was even sleepy on the way home so needless to say I went right to bed when I got home. I did see Dyson on line and tried to chat with him but he wasn’t responding. Been that way the last couple of night. I’ve been having some issue with the computer too and have a feeling I’m going to be reformatting the drive here soon. I’ve been backing up work in case that happens for sure.

I was awakened to rain coming down this morning in which we really don’t need anymore but one doesn’t play with Mother Nature. For got to mention that Bob is a certified inspector as of Monday as he passed his test. I was happy for him and he’s really a nice guy. Don’t know if I could have a future with him but I do enjoy spending time with him and I think he feels the same way. No big plans for the day as I have no idea what’s going to happen today work wise or in general. Still looks like more rain to come but I hear the weekend should be nice and lovely. Jerry is coming into town to spend time with Joe and I’ll go over and spend time with then as well as with Bob. Well that’s about it for now as I see I had a lot to catch up on and say as well. So until fingers meet keys all have a good one and hope you all have good plans over the weekend. Hugs.