Last Week Of Pride

Hey All

I guess all have been wondering where I’ve been. I’ve been so busy that sometime I don’t know if I’m coming or going. Last weekend of Pride and it's only fitting that pride would end on the last day of the week as well. Last weekend was our pride parade and festival. It rained most of the day; however I did get out and took some pictures of the parade. Here it is a week later and I have yet to look at any of the pictures. I don’t know if I’m going to do a story on parade for the publication or not as I wasn’t too pleased with the parade. It just didn’t have that, pizzas as past years. Although it rained most of the day it didn’t stop a lot of the festival or its goers. There was a good turn out as always but down from last year and year before that. I saw a few families out both straight and gay. We were lucky the rain did stop just in time for the parade to start as we do ours at night.

It’s Friday morning and I’m feeling pretty good after a good nights read and a little J.O. Session. I got a call already from the job about the kid’s graduation. I can feel it’s going to be one of those days for sure. I had training this week to start my 40 hours for my 80 certification every two years and since I was just re certified this past April this class I took will start the new 80 and 40 hours I need. However it messed up my week royally as I’m not use to getting up that early in the morning, being evening shift, and running on four and a half hours sleep. I ended up working a little over eleven hours that day and I’m still feeling the affects. We have a graduation as I mentioned today for our Vocational Education Program (VEP) kids. This program was designed to give these kids who are 16 and 17 a GED education as some may have fallen behind in school and just wouldn’t be able to catch up so this is a way for them to get and education and learn a skill and trade at the same time. Part of the program requires them to get their GED and we transport them to our near by junior college to learn their trade and skills. The collage created a special program just for that and we’ve had a very good success rate. We put on a graduation ceremony for the kids so they will have some since of accomplishment since they wouldn’t be walking across a stage from their regular school. In this class we have three valedictorians who passed the GED with flying colors on the first tire. One in particular who I’m very proud of hadn’t been in school for a couple of years pasted the highest of the class. I normally don’t get to close to the kids while they are there but if you were to see this kid he is a man before his time. Football looking husky boy as I’m sure he will make some young lady very happy when he’s ready to start a relationship. I have to say he’s been no trouble since his stay of four and a half months and I will be sad to see him go. Which is why I don’t get to emotionally attached to the kids as it does hurt when they leave. I’ve been taking pictures all week and just got them finished this Thursday. It’s not my best work but it’s something to commemorate their achievement.

As of yesterday I still haven’t heard from Jeff. Hi, his friend says he hasn’t heard from him either. Last I saw him he was very depressed and said he wasn’t going to contest and take the case to trial as he didn’t want to put the kids through that. His mother brought his sister us there to see him. Yes the one that turned him in there in which he had no words for her and said he couldn’t look at her either. Now what was the mother thinking I have no idea. He wasn’t in a good mood when I saw him last and he being Bipolar I’m just afraid it’s starting to hit him again. His lawyer isn’t doing much for him and it seems I have been the only one who has been actually seeking help for him. Of course I can’t pay for a lawyer but there has to be someone out there to help him other than a court appointed lawyer. I’ve been getting a lot of info from friends who have been passing it on to me but they all have reached dead ends. His mother has been so upset about this that she’s been hospitalized a couple of time. We all hate to see him in this state but when you’re facing Five to life well that’s a big deal. As much as I care for him and still love him I can’t and won’t stick my neck cause a relationship like that doesn’t go anywhere. I don’t betray him as a friend but I can’t wait for him to get out and then go back to what was a one sided love. I just feel betrayed by him. I’ve been trying to get past the past but my defenses keep coming up, which is one of the reasons why I’ll be looking forward to my trip next month. It will give me a out look and to some possibilities to maybe a possible relationship.

Project, I’m running a little behind schedule but I feel I will be able to send them out next week something. Lots of work this weekend and no distraction for sure. Just have to stay focused and on track with everything. It’s really been hard as you can read what’s all been going. I guess I’m stronger than I though I have been since I haven’t had a nervous break down or anything like that. Priorities, they have to be in order for me to keep going forward and at this point I’m still cleaning the closet to get there. Will I make it, I have no doubt. Well that’s about it for now so until fingers meet keys all take care and do have a great weekend my friends. Hugs.