I Guess I Had Something To Say

Man it’s been some weekend as I’m literally exhausted. This Tuesday morning got a call from my mother and brother to go check on my father as he’s starting to become bead ridden. They called me over Sunday to help get him out of the vehicle as he could get out on his own power. He’s blaming his sugar but I know it’s him as he’s been having degenerating disease for a long time. I guess it’s starting to catch up with him now. Soon as he hits the door it’s straight to his chair and he doesn’t get out of it unless it’s to go the bathroom or to bed. I can’t be there to make him start walking all the time and my mother just lets him do what he wants so I’m stuck between a rock and a hard place. However the hours are taking their strain on me as I tires a lot and not eating as much either from sleep deprivation and family members calling to wake me up at week hours in the morning. They seem to think its convenient for me to tend to him since I work evens but they forget I have a business to run as well which this month is suffering from it. Still I gather strength to do what I have to do.

What needs to happen is my mother needs to retire so she can stay home and take care of him like she should. My aunt was hired to be his health care provider but they problem is my mother wants her to clean and I’ve never heard of a health care provide coming to ones home and cleaning house. Long story there and I could write a book on that but just know I’m not going to be cleaning up after someone who’s not going to attempt to keep it that way. One thing I won’t waist my time. Although me and my brother live together he’s to a point like my mother and I sometimes wonder do I really need to be on my own. However I do enjoy being a home owner and once the business is really strong enough o support itself I’m going to seriously think about buying my own home instead of a joint thing like I have now.

As I mentioned in my earlier Blog I had a great time on Saturday night but I don’t see a love connection there. I do care for him and enjoyed his company but after I got to thinking about some of the things that happen throughout the night’s event I know a love connection isn’t there. Smooch buddies is about it. Then again I could be wrong but I’m not getting my hopes up and falling in love over it. I know I’m way mature enough for that now days. Sunday was Jeff’s (my Ex that’s in Jail) Daughter’s Birthday. She turned Seven. I hate that I wasn’t there to give her a gift but under the circumstance it’s still best I stay away until all this is over. I haven’t heard from him in about two months and you know I’m ok with that. His choice as he still continues to make the wrong decisions in his life. Then again being Bipolar doesn’t help but last letter I received from him he’s getting help while in there so maybe some good will come from it and he can get his life back together. I haven’t checked the City for Molesters in a while to see if his picture is posted there. Last I look he wasn’t in the data base. That’s a whole other story in itself.

I received two new intakes today and they’re a breeze to get done but since we didn’t get much done last week I have a mound of paper work on my desk that’s waiting to get done. Found out I’ll be receiving Seven plus on Tuesday. Thanks god I’ll be gone on Friday to Austin. Looking forward to spending sometime up there even though I have four photo shoots that weekend I will be nice to get away. Did a photo shoot yesterday and looking a the pictures they are going to be a nice lay out. However I don’t care to have others in the shoot while it’s going on it helps the models to relax then so be it. However the models roommate was helpful at some points as he use to work for Penthouse at one point. I was nervous myself as I hadn’t felt that way in a long time doing a shoot but I guess I was worried would I measure up and no I’m not talking about my dick size. Sex was not even in the equation. It was a nice shoot that took about two hours and looking at the over five hundred pictures I have some great pictures even though I’m not a good picture taker for inside shoots. Then again thank god for PhotoShop. Well that’s about it for now as I’m off here to make a few phone calls to touch bases with a couple of the models to see if we’re still on this weekend. So until fingers meet keys I hope all are doing well and having a great weekend. Hugs and chat soon.

Nice Weekend It Turned Out To Be.

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Man it’s turning out to be a wonderful weekend. Saturday morning and partly into the afternoon was editing pictures and stuff the editor sent back to me. Looks like I can send the second edition off to the printers here soon. However waiting on things from the contributors was a big delay and I can’t afford to have delays like that so lesson learned I will for sure have things ready in case things like this happen again. Was invited to two parties this weekend but only ended up attending one. I have to day I had a lovely time as I usually do. My friend Mark and the gang really know how to throw some wonderful get togethers. The pool was lovely and once you got it was actually comfortable. Hot tub was to die for as well. There was fur everywhere and most naked. However I was a spoil sport and kept my trunks on.

Had a really nice evening with Bob. Good cuddler for sure. However after being awaken from my neighbors tearing down the fence starting at nine this morning after getting home around two this morning I wasn’t in the mood. I felt like I had been five rounds with Mike Tyson for some reason. Must have been from the pool for sure as I wasn’t in the hot tub to much. Weekend has been lovely here and nice breeze going as well. However looking line rain is on the way in today Sunday. Big Indy care race going on in the city this weekend as well. Had a chance to get tickets for free and in the pit area but I turned them down as duty called with the project. The race was to start at two this afternoon and I don’t know if it’s televised or not but since the clouds have rolled in it’s not going to be hot out.

My brother BBQ yesterday, Saturday as he was testing out his new grill. Damn it was good. Meat falling off the bone cause it was so tender. Going to eat left over’s today as well then back to the grind here. Going to watch the Sopranos and Entourage later tonight while ironing clothes. All know I love me some Tony Soprano. Last week was something to see so it’s getting better for sure. Missed Star Gate and Star Gate Atlantis as I didn’t set the DVD recorder before I left for work on Friday. Will have to see if they are running it on the web. Sci-fi isn’t one to do that much. Still it doesn’t hurt to try. Well that’s about it for now so until fingers meet keys I hope all had a great weekend and looking forward to chatting with you all. Hugs.

Bad Friday

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Man this has been one hell of a day. It started off this morning when a pal of mine contacted me asking where my home page link on my profile was. “Hell if I knew.” Come to find out I had been censored by bear411. I heard of that happening but never thought it would happen to me since I’ve been a loyal paying member since 2002. I’m seriously thinking about moving over to Bearciti and not worry about having to deal with that problem. It really pissed me off to no end especially when they edited the wording in my profile. Yes it’s their site but there is a point of going to far. I was able to get my link set back up but will have to watch my wording in my profile from now own. However I have to admit it was cleaver of me using wording instead of the www icons.

For the past few Fridays, well all I can say is they have been some really tough ones to get though. I love my co workers but it just seems they are a big part of the problems. Good news I’ll be off on next Friday so I won’t have to deal with all of that. Kids have been Tass testing so I haven’t been getting a lot of them this week. On average two a day. However next week it’s going to be hell as I’m expecting Ten on Monday. Oh well that’s what I get paid for so I really can’t complain. Well I can but it wouldn’t do any good. Shift over and I made it though another day so until fingers meet keys I hope all have a good weekend in the process.

No Humping Going On Here

Well it’s Wednesday, another hump day and there is no humping going on here. Looking out my window it looks like it’s going to be a lovely day. Can’t say what the job has in store for me yet but it’s been really busy there and I don’t see it letting up here soon. However I’m making the best of it. Yesterday was really a gloomy day out and really poured raining just as I got home but didn’t last to long so that was a good thing. I ended up going to bed earlier than I’m use to doing but you know that’s a good thing as I’ve been getting my eight hours and getting up earlier in the morning which my good creative thoughts come though at that time. The past couple of days have really been nice lovely and I’ve been able to get a lot done as well.

Looking forward to the party this weekend at Marks and seeing jerry again. I had a change to chat with Will on line last night and he says he’s getting over a cold. His pictures are suppose to be published on Bearfilms in may according to him. I’ll be looking for them. I have a meeting on this hump day one of six I have to attend a month as it’s all good. I’m off to Austin next Friday and still worried that one of person I asked to do a model shoot may back out on me as I haven’t heard much from him. I’ve been trying to get one shoot over the past couple of weeks now and things keep coming up. However he says he still wants to do it so we’ll see. Well that’s about it for now may have a part two later on so until fingers meet keys all do have a good one and chat soon. Hugs.

I Survived The Weekend.

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It’s Sunday April 15^th and it’s been a busy but lazy day as well. Needed a nap for some reason and fell asleep while watching Nascar. So needless to day I don’t recall who won. I can find out from the Nascar website. I was glad to get Friday the 13^th over with. I didn’t even bother with writing in here as it was such a crazy and bad day, I was so exhausted that I just crashed when I got home. It was raining; crazy drivers and cell phones don’t mix at all not to mention folks don’t know how to slow down when it’s raining so I saw a few wrecks on the way into work.

Work was no better when I got there, five new intakes on top of temporary releases for Home visitation. Not to mention they are getting younger by the day. We knew it was coming and I’d much rather have the younger ones than the girls any day. We have a separate building that they spend X amount of dollar on and their not going to use it for the girls but now I hear they’re going to put the younger ones over there. One problem we don’t have the staff to run the place over there yet so it’s going to be interesting for sure.

Went to work on Saturday to attend one of Six meetings I have a month. Since I was there I took advantage to make up some work and hours. My boss will be happy when she returns on Monday. Wanted to do dinner and asked a couple of friends but they all had plans for the weekend so I had to settle for Chinese take out. However I regretted it later as my Chinese wasn’t agreeing with me later on that night. I think it was the beef I at so won’t be ordering that again from them. I Went to bed early as well as I was exhausted from the drive over and back to work. Not much done on the project needless to say that day. Photo shoot didn’t happen again this Sunday as he took sick on me again. Oh well. If it happens it happens. I have a few lined up for the end of the month so it’s not like it’s hurting me. Plus been invited to a party this Saturday so I’ll be looking forward to that. Well weekend is just about over and I’m about ready for bed again so until fingers meet keys hope all had a great weekend and have and even better week.

Thursday Monring. 4-12-07

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I hope all are a having a good week. For me it’s been a little crazy. Didn’t go to work yesterday as my father woke me up at 5:30 Am in the morning to take him to Dialyses. My aunt wasn’t going to be able to do it as my uncle was having cancer treatment. I don’t think he’s going to make it much longer. He’s lost a lot of weight and just looks frail. My father doesn’t have cancer but I have to say he looks much better than my uncle when you put the two side by side. Needless to day I didn’t get much sleep after going to bed at 2:00 AM and being woke up by my father at 5:30 Am and then again at 7:15 to get him to Dialyses. Not to mention pick him up so I just called in as I wasn’t going to be able to function well when I got there and it’s been so crazy there at work that I surely wouldn’t of been in the best of moods not to mention the long drive I would have to drive on the way home and don’t need and accident at all from falling sleep behind the wheel.

I did get a change to work on my project yesterday and got a lot accomplished as well. Work has been hell. Found out we’re not going to receive any girl on my facility, YEAH! But we’re going to get the younger ones now. 10 to 13 on top of the 14 to 17. All I can say it’s going to be a learning experience for me for sure. Not to mention the little ones will be getting on the older ones nerves. All I can say is, it’s going to be interesting for sure. Was suppose to have a photo shoot this morning but he’s a no show so it’s onto the next one model. Day just getting started so I will have part two of this later in today. Hugs my friends and hope you all are having wonderful day. It’s really nice out today and know it’s going to be a lovely drive as well. Hugs to you all and I’ll chat with you all soon. Until fingers meet keys.

Day After Easter

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I hope all had a great Easter as I did. Hurt my back on Friday picking up my father after he fell in the bathroom. I’m much better today as well as my dad. No broken bones are anything so I’m glad of that. More less his pride was hurt is all. However we do what we can for our parents. Dinner was great. Mother and my brother out did themselves again. Turkey, BBQ ribs and sausage, Potato salad, Green beans, Dirty Rice, dressing, rolls and pound cake for dessert topped with whip cream and cherries. Needless to say I was full buy the time I left there and packed a plate too.

Although it was cool out yesterday it turned out to be a nice day after all. The Dallas and Fort Worth area had snow which was very unusual for this time of year. I got to chat with Mac on the phone from Atlanta and had a nice long conversation. He and I hit it off right away from Bear411 and just a all around nice man. He and I have so much in common and I love the voice as well. I’m really looking forward to meeting him on person, and get this we both have the same last name so if things were to happen between us we wouldn’t have to change our last names at all. A little inside joke there. As you all know I’m a big fan of the Sopranos and it finally debut this weekend. I wasn’t to impressed with start of the show then again they never start off good but with twelve more shows to go I’m sure things will be catching my attention. Was nice to see Tony getting a blow job for his BD. Wish it was me serving him for sure but wishful thinking on my part. Entourage was petty good as well as I wasn’t a big fan of the show of past but last year it caught my attention and I have to say it’s been pretty good.

The Photo shoot was canceled yesterday as the model forgot it was Easter Sunday and we rescheduled it for Thursday morning. I had some returns from others who I asked to do a shoot as I’m trying to stay ahead of the game here, two refuse and the others are maybe’s so we’ll see. Pressure is on to complete the Second issue as my day was slowed down some from small back problem. Over all I’m getting there but not fast enough for my editor. However he’s greatly appreciated and helps keep me on track and well rounded.

Got to work today and even thought things have settle down from Friday same old shit when I walked in the door and no one cares. I’m really getting sick of that and trying not to let it get on my nerves which is probable why I go to my office and close the door and only come out when I have to. I sometimes feel like one man fighting the world. I’m glad my superintendent has the faith to give me so much leeway as it shows I’m appreciated in my job and she trust me to do what needs to be done. It’s a good feeling and I guess I can reflect on that to give me strength to keep going on other words I’m be saying something Like. “I’m going to whip your ass Mother Fucker.” DAMN! That felt good to say that but violence doesn’t become me. So I take a deep breath and Exhale then go on about my business as usual. I have ask myself at times do I take my job to serious? Well that’s about it for today so until fingers meet keys I hope all have a great week and for those who haven’t attempted to do their taxes, just a few more days my friends. Hugs to you all and chat soon.

Good Friday, Was A Day From Hell

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Good Friday. It’s suppose to be a good day but it’s been nothing but. Started off good when I looked outside this morning but when I arrived to work all hell broke loose. Can you say ESCAPE! The one thing we as officers don’t care to her however that’s what happened and the kid that ran off was only there less than twenty four hours. Now you know some heads are going to roll for sure as this kid shouldn’t have been sent to us as he was classified as an escape risk in which our facility isn’t equipped to handle. Aquaman this one was and out of my seven years of working at this facility I’ve seen three of them jump in the lake that partly surrounds our facility. I have to say he was a good and strong swimmer as he swam across the whole lake and that’s no task in itself.

They found the resident in a storm drain eight hours after his escaped. He actually gave himself up as he had nowhere to go. Freezing from the cold water and cold weather we ended up transporting him to the hospital as his vitals and body temperature dropped to 95. Once he was examined and released we took him back in to custody and started a Violation of probation (VOP) packet on him. Get this, as he was being told what was going to happen to him he made a statement. “I understand and I’m ready to go back now.” All I could do was chuckle to myself as there wasn’t a fat change in hell he was coming back to our facility. He was heading back to headquarters to be reassessed and replace somewhere he can’t escape. I know I was a kid at one point in my life but never made poor decision as some of these kids have. I guess it was good up bringing.

On top off all that it was home visit weekend where they kids that earned a home visit could go home. On top of all the phone calls of parents checking to see of their child earned a home visit and staff chattering about the days event man it was crazy. Then four o’clock hit and the parents stated hitting the door. And as usually we got some who didn’t call and assume they’re child was going to go home and didn’t. High as gas is you would think they got the point about now. Hell it takes me 45 minutes to get to work and I know some of these parents drive a longer distance that I do so Hummmmm. I could rattle on about this but it really pisses me off when a kid makes the parent fell guilty for them being there when they did it all themselves. When the incident made the local news today at noon one of the Judges decided to show up on top of one of the staff members rattling off on what happen. Oh course I had to pull him aside when the Judge left to tell him in a nice way not to ever give up such into in details as it’s not our place but more the Superintendent cause if info was miss given it’s coming back on him. He was very appreciative that I did so which made me feel good as all of my years in this business had some meaning and help a fellow officer out. It was a high light in my day but over all it was just a bad day all around.

Yesterday was another day from hell as well as I received five new intakes on top of releasing seventeen, one of the new ones as I mentioned escaped today. I had paper work coming out of my ass and the staff well, while I have good word for them they can be bothersome folks at time. I’m and old school worker and professional about my work so I don’t have time for nonsense which can piss some folks off but as I tell them I’m here to do a job and not be liked by anyone. I might not like you but we’re going to work together. These past two days have been ones that calgon couldn’t take away. I’m thoroughly exhausted and I don’t drink much but feel I’m in need of one and that’s not me at all. But enough venting as you know my job was very stressful the past two days.

Moving on I have more than my share of project work to do this weekend. Stuff finally arriving from the contributor and I have an photo shot this weekend. Been lining up others as well and got some response. Since second issues are done these will got for third and forth issues. I got the cover model selected as well as my committee finally made a choice. I told him and he’s ecstatic about it. I have to say it was a toss up for sure. Will be a busy weekend for sure but you know at this point I’m looking forward to it. If at all just to rest from the past two days. Well I hope all have a good Easter weekend as I’m going to for sure. Especially on Sunday when the Soprano’s return. As you all know I love me so Tony Soprano. Well all take care and until fingers meet keys chat soon and big hugs.

Moday's Recap Of My Weekend

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I do hope all had a wonderful weekend as mine was somewhat good. To recap I may have mentioned that I didn’t make it to work on Friday due to issues with my fathers pickup. Now I have a whole new issue with that as well but I’ll get to that later on. Saturday morning went over to a friend’s home and worked on her computer which ended up being a five hours ordeal and still not finished with it. It’s not super slow but things take time to load on it and so it’s not speeds I’m use to at home or work. However but the time five o’clock came around I needed to get out of there so I could me a good friend for dinner as we’re celebrated his Birthday early since I wouldn’t bee seeing him for a few week. Hey work for the Houston Opera part time and they new season is starting up.

Meet him and we ate at Pei Wei which was good as I try to try something different each time I go. Then we left there and went to have dessert at the Marble Slab and that’s where I think I started having some issues with my stomach. I managed to get thorough some good conversation with out letting on but couldn’t way to get home and blow like orca whale as a nice way of putting it. Three hours my stomach wouldn’t let me rest. Normally I could lie on my stomach and things would settle down but not this time. Sharpe pains on top of feeling like Mount St. Helens was irrupting in my stomach wasn’t a good combination. Once things calmed down I was so exhausted I just laid it down for the rest of the evening.

Woke up about Four in the morning and watched some video I needed to catch up on as I was still trying to have some trimmers after that fact but nothing every irrupted. Went back to sleep about eight that morning and finally work up about ten thirty that morning. Got up got my shower and was ready to go. Read the paper and got to work on the project as issue two’s deal line is fast approaching and I need to get that together with finishing touches. Worked on up to about Seven that evening as I wanted to catch some of the amazing race. Came in just in time when the dwarf woman was throwing up in a bucket. That wasn’t funny to me but more the reaction to the other players when she did it as they were trying to hold down their food as well. Twenty four inches of a sausage is a bit and let me tell you she didn’t move to quickly or cared what her partner was saying. I KNOW HOW THE GIRL FELT.

Well that was about the highlight of my weekend. Looking forward to the Soprano’s returning next weekend. Love me some Tony Soprano. Since this will be the last shows I want to make sure I see ever episode especially when he’s half naked. I got a feeling they are going to kill him off as things start to catch up with him we’ll see. 13 shows can’t wait. Well I do hope all had a great weekend and have and even better week. Good Friday this week as I have a lot to do. Got Seventeen I’m releasing this week on top of have to be re-finger printed for background check to keep my certification. We have to do that every two years as well as keep up eighty hours of training. Pain in the ass but hey I’m not sweating it. They job is paying the bills and funded most of my project as the project is fast working it’s way to support itself. So until fingers meet keys all so have a great week and looking forward to chatting with you all on line soon. Hugs.