Memorial Day Weekend

Hello All

I guess most of you have been wondering what’s been happening as I haven’t been updating this as often. Well two weeks ago I mentioned my father was back in the hospital for his foot and later sent to a rehab center to finish his Therapy. A week later he was placed back in the hospital for and infection that developed in his foot. He had developed a blister on his foot that wasn’t healing well, in the process caught an infection. Diabetes I hear will do that to you on top of his dialyses. To make a long story short they were talking about amputating his foot because the infection in which I have to say I wasn’t too happy about when I got the news. I went to see him as soon as I got word as he seemed to be taking the news pretty well. I know he was keeping a straight face for us. Still we wanted to get a second opinion in which we did. We ended up having him moved to the Methodist Hospital down town and tomorrow they’re doing surgery on this foot to remove part of the bone and not his whole foot. I was relieved of that. The length of his big toe will be shorter but again it’s better than having the whole foot removed. I think he will be pleased as he was in a lot of pain and since I’m like him anything is better than having pain.

I have to work on Monday but I’ve been invited to a send off party on Saturday for a dear friend. It will be good to spend sometime with good friends again. Plus it will be a nice break from all that’s been going the past few weeks and I even have an escort. (See picture below to right) Second issues all mailed out and I’ve only seen one major mistake but getting better. So far all have been pleased with it. Working on Third issue as well as website so that will be ready for a June release. My brothers play toy will be home on Sunday and I’m not looking forward to that as it’s been really nice not having him around. However I hear he may be pulling out three days later as he’s ready to make some serious money. Off Shore work in which I don’t think he has the balls to stick with it. I have lost faith on him keeping a job for long periods of time. Then again I could be wrong on this one. See his problem is he wants to make a quick buck but he also has to learn that he needs to save his money as well. One thing on this job if he keeps it he’ll have goof benefits and that’s something he needs. I told my brother if he doesn’t keep this job this time I’ll have his stuff packed at the front door waiting for him as he has no choice in the matter this time. I’m all for helping someone but there comes a time when you have to help yourself as well and if he thinks this will be a free ride well he has another thing coming for sure.

School is out and since I have three teaches in the family all will be wanting one thing or another, rather it be running errands or picking up someone. Two and a half months till the next semester and I for one are already for them to get back to work and they haven’t had the first day off. My brother isn’t too bad on stuff like that but more my sister and mother. Since my father is in the hospital she’ll be preoccupied with him. However I have a business to run so that’s not going to be and option for me. Not to mention on the job I have been receiving kids on the job every day and not just two or three. We’re way over capacity and headquarters wants us to drop it down by 30 kids. Not going to happen when they continue to send them from the evaluation center. Can one say communication break down? To be honest it’s like we’re at war with the E-Val center. So something will have to give here, not to mention we’re all stressed to no end.

I haven’t had time to write Jeff back as you read I’ve been pretty busy. However I will work on sending him a letter over the weekend. I can tell he’s been feeling sorry for himself as he keeps talking about the death prenatally and stuff like that, then again I’ve been doing this business for twenty two years now so I kind of know those signs. My conscience is clear if he does decide to do harm to himself. He being Bipolar does worry me but I won’t let it slow me down. Since my mind and heart aren’t clouded by love for him I’m not that easy to put on his side. As I have said in the past I will be his friend but I know how far that friendship will go. He seems to know where he’s going to live when he’s released. The hard part is he hasn’t any answers yet as they keep setting back the trial which lets me know the prosecution doesn’t have a case or someone isn’t talking. Then again the question is will this person he’s going to house sit for be around or a living when he’s release as I hear this man in up in the age. He seems to think he could get probation and if that happens I would be happy for him. He did ask me could he come stay with me if he was able to bond out and of course I would have to decline but I don’t think that would happen as he was a is flight risk. The running when this all happen was harmful to him on that. Jeff will always have a place in my heart and I have given him all kinds of chances but again when he told me he enjoyed the sex we had but as far as loving me he just didn’t feel it in his heart that was the last draw for me. Why would I want to stay with someone who doesn’t feel the same about me as I did for him? He wrote that I would always have a special place in his heart and wish thing had been different for us but his head was in a different place then but says he’s getting help for it now. For me I think it’s a little too late. I’ll admit the dick was good and fit just right however there was no passion from him. Either he didn’t know how or just didn’t want to. I’ve seem him give his dog more passion than he gave me and I did let him know it. As I look back on it way to many signs but I was blinded by love not to see them. Well enough of that as it’s a thing of the past for me. I do which all a great weekend as I’m going to make the best if mine as well. So until fingers meet keys all take care and plenty of hugs and on those who have passed before us.