Well from the looks of this it’s been a while since I’ve written in there. I’ve been depressed most of the week and I can’t explain it but I just don’t feel like doing shit these days. Two months after my nephews death and I’m much better but I still have my moments. I have to tell you I don’t care for this grieving stuff at all. I know we all have to go through it but it really hurts when it’s a love one. I guess I never really had to experience these emotions in a while. I’m driving his vehicle now since the pickup has a cracked radiator. I have to say I love paying thirty five dollars to fill up instead of that sixty to seventy. Hell I got a raise! Although I’m reminded every time I get in the vehicle of him. I don’t have many adult memories of him as he was always on the go but do have a lot of him from his child hood.
Good news I’m going on a seven day cruise next weekend. I’m really looking forward to that. However got word that the person I’m suppose to go with is sick so it’s and iffy situation rather he makes it or not. However it’s too late to get money back now so I’m going regardless. It would be nice to have someone to share in the moment but we’ll see. I will keep up hope that he can make it. Then again it won’t be the first time I was stood up. My friend Ron will be coming into the night before as he will be passing through town. It will be nice to catch up and see him again.
My best friend Steve, what can I say about him? He’s really having a hard time since the passing of his mother. He stopped by today and is now sporting a beard. Kind of nice as it’s still in the developing stages. He’s going through a phase on rather he wants to be straight or gay. The woman he asked to marry him years ago and he caught cheating on him is back in his life and he says when he’s with her he’s all jittery and things but don’t care to have sex with her. When I open the door and to my surprise found him standing there I had to check him to see if he has a ring on his finger as I hadn’t heard from him in a while. However he tells me today that they made out but no actual sex so he says. However I know its coming and he’s starting to feel that way. It’s sad though as he says he likes dating woman but rather fuck a man. So someone really tell me what’s going on. However I don’t have to worry about it as he’s not fucking me or playing with my emotions. I really think all this is going on because he’s mourning the death of his mother this year. She doesn’t trust him when he’s talking to men as she things he’s setting up a date or something. Oh yes she knows about his sexual escapades. It’s just to long a story to write about here but it’s getting interesting. Bad part about it is I’m loosing a friend as he’s getting closer to her. I would call and he’s on the phone with her and says he will call back but I don’t. So oh well. I’m prepared to move on but I’ll be there for him when the bottom falls out.
Weekend not much going on. I will be visiting my ex as I won’t be able to the next two weeks. He will be happy to see me as his family doesn’t give a dame about him. None of them have written or been to visit him. I know if it was my family they would make time to come visit or something. I just feel sorry for the guy but I do give him hope to keep going and living as well. He comes from such a dysfunctional family so it’s no wonder. Still it’s time to make a change so maybe this will be his time to make that change. Well that’s it for now so until fingers meet keys.
Good news I’m going on a seven day cruise next weekend. I’m really looking forward to that. However got word that the person I’m suppose to go with is sick so it’s and iffy situation rather he makes it or not. However it’s too late to get money back now so I’m going regardless. It would be nice to have someone to share in the moment but we’ll see. I will keep up hope that he can make it. Then again it won’t be the first time I was stood up. My friend Ron will be coming into the night before as he will be passing through town. It will be nice to catch up and see him again.
My best friend Steve, what can I say about him? He’s really having a hard time since the passing of his mother. He stopped by today and is now sporting a beard. Kind of nice as it’s still in the developing stages. He’s going through a phase on rather he wants to be straight or gay. The woman he asked to marry him years ago and he caught cheating on him is back in his life and he says when he’s with her he’s all jittery and things but don’t care to have sex with her. When I open the door and to my surprise found him standing there I had to check him to see if he has a ring on his finger as I hadn’t heard from him in a while. However he tells me today that they made out but no actual sex so he says. However I know its coming and he’s starting to feel that way. It’s sad though as he says he likes dating woman but rather fuck a man. So someone really tell me what’s going on. However I don’t have to worry about it as he’s not fucking me or playing with my emotions. I really think all this is going on because he’s mourning the death of his mother this year. She doesn’t trust him when he’s talking to men as she things he’s setting up a date or something. Oh yes she knows about his sexual escapades. It’s just to long a story to write about here but it’s getting interesting. Bad part about it is I’m loosing a friend as he’s getting closer to her. I would call and he’s on the phone with her and says he will call back but I don’t. So oh well. I’m prepared to move on but I’ll be there for him when the bottom falls out.
Weekend not much going on. I will be visiting my ex as I won’t be able to the next two weeks. He will be happy to see me as his family doesn’t give a dame about him. None of them have written or been to visit him. I know if it was my family they would make time to come visit or something. I just feel sorry for the guy but I do give him hope to keep going and living as well. He comes from such a dysfunctional family so it’s no wonder. Still it’s time to make a change so maybe this will be his time to make that change. Well that’s it for now so until fingers meet keys.
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