A Recap Of The Week.

Hello MY Friends.

Saturday afternoon here and I have to day it’s been a slightly busy week at that. Recapping the week I found out Tuesday that my dad was having some bleeding in his eyes from his diabetes again after he was doing so well for the past three months. I knew he had some bleeding in his left eye and but now he was having bleeding in the right eye in which he just has cat removal about a month ago so it did raise some concerns. However made and appointment to get him to the doctor on Thursday since the doctor isn’t in the office on Wednesday afternoons which would have been the time he could go since he has dialyses in the morning that day. Thursday got him to the doctor and ended up going to a second doctor as well. Both doctors agreed that it was ok to go head for him to have is Cat removed on this coming Monday so we’re still a go for that.

As you already know my ex turned himself in this Wednesday awaiting trial. I have made no attempt to go near there or contact him. However I have been thinking of what he’s going thorough at the moment. When you have been that close to some one you really don’t stop loving them or at least it’s not that way for me. However there is no way in hell that he and I could ever be as for one I guess I wasn’t young enough and two there is just no future. I won’t stop being his friend but I won’t support him financially as I don’t want to set myself up for failure as I know the answers there already. However working in the corrections field for 21 years I know how important it is to have a friend on the outside to be there for support as he’s in for a long haul. He’s got some good skills that can be useful to him in the prison as he’s a good cook and hair styles so those two alone will make some of his stay easy. Then again a lot of folks have this myth that he’s going to get raped in. I have to say that depends on what unit he’s sent to. From my experience of working with sexually offenders they usually tend to stick together as they of course have things in common and the general population although they might not care for them won’t usually bother them as they don’t want to take a change on getting another case and messing up their chances of getting out. Jeff has some medical issues according to him as most of the time I felt he was faking as one minute he’s be fine and the next he’d be what seem like to me acting. Still I have put that behind me and a year and a half later since I called it quits this is were he’s ended up. However a good thing for me has come from this as I now have and ending to my six part story for the Second year’s issues. I will call it “Desperate House Husband.” Should make a great story for sure as when I was with him it was always drama going on in his life and a lot of it could have been prevented himself but he was stubborn and bull headed which I saw reflect in his kids as well. Then again you’ll only hear one side of the story as there are two sides to every story. This I assure you that mine will be more factually that if he was telling it. Some of you have expressed your concerns as to would I be implemented in any of this. Since I have been broken up with him for over a year and a half now and rarely was out there I think it’s not likely. Plus kids just aren’t my thing as I told him when I saw him looking at twinky looking men in the internet. The last time I talked to him he told me he’d rather die than go to prison but with no money and no where to run to not to mention it was getting really cold outside and your picture plastered all over the local news, well a warm prison cell I guess was looking might good to him about now. I have no clue where he’s been hiding all this time as I was under the impression that he was leaving the country. Well that phase of his life is over and now it’s on to a new one. My problem I can’t seem to stop thinking about him. No sexually but more of what going to happen and what he’s going through as he does suffer bipolar disorder and bouts of depression. I think I was thinking more of him as my training on Friday was on Suicide prevention and I saw a lot of the signs in Jeff that they talked about in the class. Still life goes on and it’s not my problem. I did try to move the world for him but realized I needed to move on with my life as when I was with him I was constantly falling backwards. I feel when your in a relationship the two should work together to reach common goals they set for each other to reach. We talked about that but never could get to that point. Still it will all be told in my Story. Sorry all will have to wait a year to read it but I have this years story all ready in place.

At work I have to say it was a good week. Received ten new intakes for the week but they weren’t a hassle to get completed and it went like clock work. Was last to work on Thursday of course as I was with my father on doctors appointments. I had my last class of training on Friday for the year to complete forty hours of my eighty hours to keep my certification. Bad news is I have to repeat all the classes again next year. I guess that’s a part of life as it does get old after twenty one years. Still it’s my bread and butter so I go with the flow and not make waves as well as set an example for the new employees. They set up Xmas decoration this week and it’s starting to look like Xmas for sure. Still driving my dad truck as it will be a little while until I get my vehicle fixed. I’ll explain that later. Over all things are rolling along and I feel good as to the decisions I made as well. I’ve been chatting with some great new friend on line and they have been very supportive as well. No plans for this weekend just kind of lazy and getting some things take care of. Well that’s about it for now as I hope all are having a great weekend. Looking forward to chatting with a few of you again soon. So until finger meet keys all have a good weekend and take care. Hugs to you all.