Hello My Friend.
Hope all are doing and had a great week to go with it. For me its been a week of ups and downs like our weather there. Today was really overcast and some mist too but no major rain. Good thing as I washed my vehicle this weekend and would like to think I didn’t do it for nothing. Only worked half a day today as I was busy running around taking care of business. I’m still not having to many words to say to my folks and seriously doubt I’ll be going over next week for Easter dinner. It’s not big deal as they know I mean business when I don’t show up for one of the holidays.
I had and interesting conversation with a long time friend this week and seems like every six months he and I go through this. He gets mad at me, then not talk to me, and then calls me some kind of friend because I have to think about having sex with him. He made a comment to the point that if I had to think about it then I was never a true friend in the first place. Hummmmmm. Can you say pressuring someone doesn’t seem to appealing at all. I won’t go into the whole details of the story to get us to this point and I won’t go into where I’ll go with it either. Maybe it’s a controlling factor that I haven’t put into place. In the meantime life does go on. I did tell him that no matter what I was still his friend and left it at that. So if he chooses not to speak to me at this point, or never again I won’t loose any sleep over it. Life is to short to hold grudges and I for sure want to life live life to the fullest as I don’t know how much time I have left on this earth. No one really knows so why sit around and dwell. I’m really tired of trying to make others happy and not have happiness giving back in return. I have enough on my plate as it is to be worried about the small things in life. Besides I still have feeling for my ex even though he and I aren’t an item anymore. Still I put them aside right now as it’s not a good time for either of us to be talking relationship. Plus I don’t care to get hurt by him again which is why I’ve probable been stand offish from him. I’m glad he and I can remain friends as one can never have too many friends.
One can’t sit and wonder what could be if he and I could work together to build a family and empire. I want so much to enjoy that as I see other who have been lucky to have found that special someone to make that happen. So at this point I’m working hard to get my project off the ground and running so I can have something to fall back on when I am ready to retire. Stick budget is the key and I’m really feeling it trying to support a business that doesn’t have and income coming in at the moment. Let hope the pay off will be well worth it.
This weekend I’ll be at it again getting articles ready for the editor and the layout as well. I have some good topics and lot of unanswered question as well. I sometimes wonder how I do keep my head above water sometimes and it scares me that the blood and sweat and tears I put into this won’t pay off. Then again that’s the gamble one take, I Really feel this is my last change to prove something to myself that I can do this. Waiting around to win the lottery isn’t going to cut it either even though its up to 168 Million since no one won this past Tuesday. I’ll take five dollar and try again this Friday since it’s so high, Most folks what it all at once me I want payments so I’ll know I’ll get a check guaranteed for twenty five year. Say I do run out of funds I know I’ll have another one coming. People say it won’t change them but we know better especially if you haven’t had funds like that before. I have to admit it’s a good feeling to have money but to buy needless isn’t. I feel that things don’t make me happy however I do take care of the things I do posses. No major plans for the weekend as I hope all will have a good weekend at best. So until fingers meet keys all have a good and looking forward to chatting again very soon.
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