EARLY WEDNESDAY

Hey All
Hope all are doing well. Yesterday went smoothly to a point until the kids decided they wanted to have a little rumble in the gym. Cops where called but now one taken this time. DAMN! Oh well. Still things happen like that when they get restless. Name calling first and then it leads to a fight. Staff put to much trust that the kids would do the right thing when he should have separated them in the beginning. OH well we live and we learn for sure. Sine he’s fairly new he has a lot to learn.

Confirmed my friend coming in from Canada in less than two weeks as I’ll be taking a vacation week to spend time with him. Will be a really fun filled week at that. Full moon was out last night and it had no affect on me whatsoever. Normally I’d be horny as I don’t know what but I haven’t even wanted to J.O.  Jeff has been sick so I haven’t been around him so I won’t contract what was making him sick. Normally all I’d have to do is look at him and I’d go rock hard and it was sometimes embarrassing especially when we’re in public cause I do have a lot to try and hide. Walking around with my hands in my pockets wasn’t always cutting it. However lately I haven’t been feeling that as often. Even though I do have feeling for him and do care they’re not as strong as before. I would love to have someone feel the way I did for him. Could that return one never knows but here are still a lot of factor to consider before I can even think about going back to that factor.

He did call and tell me he went to the doctor and was feeling some what better. I’m concerned about his couch as he mentioned there was blood in his mucus and it sounded very dry. We also talked about a few issues that are going on right now and I really couldn’t find the words to say what I was thinking at the time for one fear of pissing him off and two just WHY? We’ve managed to get our friendship back to a level with no pressure and expectation in it and I have to say it’s been very nice. I haven’t talked with him this morning as he’s on a field trip with his youngest at school. One thing I can say he does take care of his kids. Between baseball practice and games it and home work and doing it alone at time well it can be over whelming and sometimes tiring too. Sometimes one needs that space to just close the door and get their mind right. Plus I can understand why he wouldn’t want to have sex either. Exhausted is a word that comes to mind. Then there is the libido thing. I was watching the news and saw that men can go through a form of menopause. I forgot what the word they used to call it for men but Jeff seem to have all the symptoms of it. However to slow that aging process down men would have to take a combination of drug that are injected and Jeff sure isn’t one for needles. He’s been loosing weigh and that’s a good thing so it will help with his diabetes.

I have the third of six meeting I have to attend a month today so I’ll be heading in early as well. I’ve missed one of them already and will miss the last one as I’ll be on vacation entertaining guest. Mowed the yard this morning and kind of looking good. I can’t say much for the back yard since we don’t use it at all well it’s just there is all I can say. However I need to get back there and at least make it look somewhat presentable. Cutting it sure made a difference for sure. I’m working half a day on Good Friday as I may have mentioned since my boss wasn’t kind enough not to let me off. Oh well no worries as I have plenty more coming so it’s not big deal. Five more months before I get my next raise and three more after that and I get another one so this year is looking up especially with the price of gas going up like it has. We’ve been lucky with Eclectic gas and water. They haven’t increased much. One thing I can’t get over is my Dish bill. We have the works package and it’s gone to one hundred bucks now. So something here is going to have to give soon. It’s nice to have all the major cable networks at your fingers. However since Queer as folk doesn’t come on anymore I really don’t watch Showtime much. HBO well this will be the last season for the Sopranos so once that’s gone. Who knows? I do like Big Love and Dead Wood. Too much cursing for me on Dead Wood though. Every other word is F that and F this. Starz, the Movie Channel will be watched from time to time but I’ll have to make some decision here soon. As that’s way too much to be paying for Television. Hard to believe that thirty to forth years again most of television was free.  Well that’s about it for now need to get up here so I can get dressed and hit the road. 45 minute drive ahead of me and whatever surprises await me at work as well. So until fingers meet keys hope all are having a wonderful day and have an even wonderful weekend if I don’t chat to most of your before then. Big bear hugs my friend and take care as well.