Thur, Fri & Xmas Eve

Hello All My Friend
Happy Merry Christmas to all. I didn’t write anything in here on here Friday as my hours where mixed up and I didn’t get much sleep before I had to go to work Friday morning. Yes I said Friday morning as you all know I work evenings. Recapping the last three days of the week Wednesday I mention that the facility party was happening that night and most likely Thursday they would have us doing UA’s and guess what the lady showed up around four that evening. Not to mention guess who was one of them picked to test as well. You can’t tell me it’s a coincident for me to be picked the last three times they have been there. Even though I knew I’d be clean it makes one think what’s going on and are they out to get me. Still I blew it off and did it to get it over with, however there where a few of them sweating it out as they where still hung over from the night before. The head office ended up sending me one intake on Thursday to give me a total of thirteen for the week. So we’ll climbing back to over capacity again. Did him in no time as there wasn’t much paper work they sent with him so next week we’ll be busy sending faxes and emails to retrieve the rest of his paper work. To be honest I don’t think he’ll last long in our program as he’s been in several metal institutes and somehow managed to talk his way out of them as well. It’s not going to be that simple here. You either work the program or you’re out the door bottom line.

Went to bed early or call myself going so I could get up early Friday morning and be to work at eight however I was a waken to one of the fire alarms in the house cheeping (Just so happen to be the one outside my bedroom door) cause it had a low battery and silly me instead of getting out of the bed to change it right away I just laid there trying to ignore it but it did work as I finally got up and changed the battery. By this time it was five thirty in the morning so I said to myself I was up now I might as well get ready for work and did. Thinking that the traffic was going to be horrible since I normally don’t drive that early in the morning, I was surprised there was no traffic and made good time. Got to work and set up things to start releasing kids on their extended home visits. We were humping there as it was just me and one other probation office until eleven. Time went by fast and smooth and before I knew it noon had rolled around. We had temporarily released 28 kids by that time. I started feeling the affects from my lack of sleep around one and two as parents slowly staggered in. I don’t know about everyone else but I have to have my full eight hours of sleep now a days or I just can’t functions properly. Goes to show I’m not that twenty two year old anymore. LOL Four o’clock rolled around and I was out of the door as fast as my feet would move me. I wished all a Merry Christmas as the door was closing behind me. The drive home wasn’t so bad but one could tell that the folks were out doing they’re last minute shopping. I was sleepy too as I was really feeling it by that time. I have to pass up three major malls on the way home and the parking lots where full beyond belief. Glad I had gotten all mine done back in October. If I did pray that was the time to do it to make it home without any accidents. There have been a few this holiday season and a couple were car fires that I’ve seen.

I got a call from a very old lover from ten years ago. He just got out of jail and was in a halfway home until he could get on his feet. I guess that was a really nice Xmas gift for him. We talked for a good long time catching up as it wasn’t much to catch up on him being in prison and all. However I didn’t have feeling to want to attempt another relationship with him. For one it’s sad to say but I don’t trust him as he stole over a thousand dollars worth of camera equipment from me and sold it in a bar for drugs money. Although I was hurt to loose the material things I know they weren’t important as they could and were replaced but I’m not going to give him the opportunity to do it again. Even though he says he’s moving in the right direction I’m not willing to take that chance he’ll fall off the wagon and take me down with him in the process. I just don’t trust him at all after all that and it will take a very long time for him to regain my trust again. To be honest the sex was good but the last few times he and I were together he wasn’t able to perform at all plus you don’t base a relationship on sex. I worked to hard to get to where I am and I’m not about to be stupid rather I’m desperate or not to allow him or anyone else take me to that level. Mother didn’t raise a fool either and I thank her for that. I’ll keep him at arms length as I’ll never stop being some ones friend over what they’ve done or have become. Who knows maybe this time he has gotten himself together and will make it this time. I just won’t be there to help him out this time around. One has to crawl before they can walk is all I have to say on that.

I went to bed early Friday night as I was dead tired. I got up about eight on Saturday morning and drove to get me some Donuts for breakfast. Yeah I know not very nourishing but I wasn’t in the mood for bacon or sausage. I’ve been groggy all day and finally got my ass up and washed my vehicle that was in very bad need of it. Now it looks like a new vehicle and makes me want to keep it another three years. LOL I take care of them as they costing way to much now a day and I don’t see a raise or a cost of living coming my way anytime soon from my job so it’s make due with what you have and I do. It’s been a good vehicle and I do take care of it. If I sale it the person that does get it will have almost like a new vehicle. I was surprised to get thirty two hundred for my nine year old vehicle and I’ve seen it on the road as well so it’s still kicking. I called my friend Richard as I told him I’d call this weekend and wanted to see if he was free for dinner or a move.  He had plans already so we many get together next week or shortly after that.

My brother and his lover or gone to his lovers parents home for a little get together tonight so I’m at the house along and its fine with me as I can enjoy the peace and quit. When you have an eighteen year old in the house, well lets say they’re not to quiet plus he’s a night owl too up to early hours in the morning playing video games or on the computer. One of the reasons why I won’t have a twink or pretty boy for a boyfriend yet alone a relationship as we have nothing in common but Sex and a good looking body. I guess I’m one to see beyond that. I need more to a relationship. I do prefer a mature man close to may age and have something in common with this person as well. No worry he’ll be going in the service January first for boot camp and won’t be back for six months. However he’s in the reserve that doesn’t mean he won’t be called to go to Iraq. I hope it doesn’t come to that but it was his decision. Well that’s about it for now. I do want to wish all a HAPPY MERRY CHRISTMAS and hope you all got your last minute shopping done too. Looking forward to hearing what all got and did as well. So until fingers meet keys all take care and have A safe and wonderful Holidays, big hugs to all.